mike81

yes, I suffer from the pure obessional kind of OCD; more specifically, I have 'homophobic' OCD. I can assure it can make life a living nightmare. At worst, I had a 'spike', a intrusion (a thought our urge that causes anxiety and/or fear) constantly if I was confronted with certain 'triggers', things that cause you to spike. I would spike when seeing a male, thinking about sex, hearing something about homosexuality. At this point you will be doubting about your life and yourself etc., hence ocd is also called the doubting disease. After some therapy and doing my own excersises and accepting some truths about myself, I started getting better. Still, I can't live a normal life. Currently I'm looking for an OCD specialist not to far away from where I live (I'm from the Netherlands).
Your story is difficult to judge and confusing. After reading your post i'm not so sure about ocd. Usually when I read someone's pure O OCD story, I can really relate to it, as can other people. When I read your last post about your bf, I could not relate to it, but this is just a feeling. I felt angry and agressive at times when I had OCD at the worst times, because of the fubar situation I was in. The point that doesn't make sense to me is his anger towards you, though this could be because of the content of his obsession (if it involves you). Anyway, to things stand out: he thinks himself he does not need treatment for his obsessive thoughts; I was happy that there was treatment. Furthermore, I see no mention of fear or anxiety in your posts, only aggression and anger; fear and anxiety are key conditions for OCD. I also think prescribing someone heavy medicines for a heavy condition - bipolar disorder - without a diagnosis by a specialst, worrysome. Concluding, I still can't tell if its OCD or not, still there are ocd symptons, I couldn't tell. Feel free to ask for more advice or ask other people with ocd, there used to be a lot.
Oh and why is my post count only 3 posts? I posted a lot more!