OCD doubts my love - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

TSGTLCM · 11-27-2004, 04:17 AM

Help me! I have been doubting that I love my wife. I want to be with her and do'nt want to lose her. She dreamed I had cheated on her with someone and I told her I didn't even know that person, then se said it must be somebody else. Well my mind started thinking and I had remembered that i had seen a girl at work that was attractive. I got in my head that I didn't love my wife and I wanted to be with this woman. This is giving me great pain along with anxiety and panick attacks for fear I will lose her. I to help relive some of the stress I confessed to her about this. I have done this before so she is used to it but still gets mad and says she can't deal with this again. If it wasn't for this thought then it may be another bad thought (I can have some bad ones) Religious, sexual and I confess thse too. Gets to the point where she says I don't want to hear it anymore. Sometimes I can't stop. I am on Zoloft but just for a week, I stopped paxill last year when I felt better stupid me. Is this normal OCD behaver. I guess I need reassurance.

ocdbugsme · 11-27-2004, 04:48 PM

This sounds typical OCD worry to me. A few of us here go through very similar things.
Maybe you (and your wife) could feel better if you saw a CBT therapist.

The trick is to try and stop worrying about worrying.

I'm sure the meds will help soon.

ocdbugsme

erin1979 · 11-28-2004, 07:48 PM

hi ...i want to share my story ...i got this dumb thought too....i started thinking that i was falling out of love with my boyfriend of 3 years that i love deaply. though i new that it was my ocd i couldn't help but think those unwanted thoughts. i want to give you great advice. when these thoughts consume you just think it is ocd and try to pass that thought ...though it is very hard if you didn't ant to be with your wife you would leave. and you are afraid that these thoughts are going to come true...well that my friend is enough to prove that it is your brain not your feelings. if you wanted to leave your wife then you would try to do so....but since you are afraid of those thoughts it is obvious that you are inlove with her still. if that dont work please let me tell you what i did. i was honest with my boyfriend in telling him what i was going thru and that made those bad thoughts go away. at times i also had times that i thought that i was going to hurt him ...ocd is a hard thing to deal with . i want you to know that you are not alone and i sit here with the same strugle as alot of others do here. good luck.