 Obsession over surgery
I have an overwhelming fear of surgery and given the fact that by signing an "informed consent" form you basically sign your life away, I'm not so sure but what my "obsession" is'nt unfounded!.
I know that as I age, sooner or later various parts will wear out or become diseased. I have a lipoma (fatty mass) on my right spermatic cord as well as prostate problems. Some people might take surgery to correct these problems in stride but with me, I'm always expecting the worst...
Will the doctor make medical mistake?
Will he explore and dissect more than is necessary?
Will he damage me and then make excuses?
Will he discover something horrible during surgery?
Will the anesthesia wear off in the middle of surgery?
Will I develop a blood clot or serious infection?
Will I be in terrible pain?
That's all I can think about anymore and it is consuming me. My mind is brimming with images of severed body parts, blood, bruising, agonizing pain, anxiety...you name it.
What to do?. I am taking Celexa now and Lorazepam "as needed".
Help please!!
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