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Unfortunatley, I'm stuck with 3 mental disorders. obsessive compulsive, ADD (Not ADHD), and schizophrenia. I also have germ-a-phobia, and epilepsy.

I've noticed somthing different about me. My intelligence is going away.. I've felt like this for the last week. I used to be able to do 6-step mathmatical equations in my head in less that a second. I noticed now when I try to do math, I can keep the current numbers in my head, but the other ones that i'll need later on I seem to be forgetting. I do everything much slower now. Somthing simple, like sending a semi-lengthy e-mail to a friend would take about 10 minutes.. After I finished up, I looked on the clock and an hour had passed! I can tell that my thought patterns are different.. The equivalent as they were when I was a 5-year-old.. I try to visualize stuff.. You know, like fantasies to keep myself from being sexually deprived.. When I visualize, everything turns to black and white instead of color, and then gray, then goes away. This happened to memories too.. I think of a memory when I was a child or infant, but then the same happens.. But later I can remember back in color, but the same process repeats.. My litterary skills also seem to be going away.

I do a very good job of identifying another persons thought patterns. I was watching I movie with an infant in it. I pictured what it would bel ike to be the infant.. And my memory shut off for a minute.. could this be part of the problem? It keeps coming back to me.. I wish this thoiught would leave me mind.. Another thing.. I looked at an animal and pictured to be the animal,. I then lost my intelligence or short term memory for a a second, then it came back later. This negative thought keeps entering my mind and destroying me.. Is this part of the problem?

I've been very concerned about this.