lifecanbegood

Hello All,

This is my first time posting a thread and i'd like to tell everyone that those replying to people is distress should truly feel good about themselves. Often times, comfort is all one needs!

On to my story. Two years ago I was avoiding movie theatres like the plague and always sat near the exit. My G.P told me to take celexa-- which, consequently, I was unaware was an SSRI at the time. "Take this, it'll make you think clearer" he said. Of course, I acquiesced. In about a week I was gold. I took celexa for a year and a half and took myself off last June.

In December I went on an airplane and had my first panic attack in six months and then it began: ruminating, thiking, worrying etc. Often times i'd go to my room and just think for 3 hrs! When I came home I saw my G.P and he told me to go back on the 20mg. So I did. I can now cope, but now I still obsess and worry.

I saw a psychiatrist and he said he thinks it's OCD. Although I would never do it, I find myself obsessing about suicide and I constantly worry about the future and whether I "will make it" or ever "get better." I'm an A student but I can't seem to concentrate for more than 5 min without worrying. Only when i'm with people or watching T.V. is my mind O.k. The funny thing is, some days can be great and some terrible. So i've upped the medication to 30mg and we'll see what happens. For all of you out there: does this sound like OCD? I mean I touch corners and twitched as a kid, but , i'm pretty dirty! Do you guys incessantly worry and obssess all the time.

On a side note: we all know that we're thinking illogically, if only we could think our way out of it. I'm going to try Cognitive behavioural therapy--does that work?

Again, I think all those who help other on this site, deserve a heartfelt thanks.