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I've had an obsession for a month and for like 20 minutes I decided to go out on a limb and purposely repeat the obsession over and over again in my head, like that "cognitive therapy" stuff I've read, particularly an article called Thinking the Impossible. I actually felt like a burden was lifted from my chest, but I did have one problem - Where do I go from here? I feel very relieved and I'm sure a few more days will make me feel way better since the whole month of avoiding the obsession was burning me out on the thought little by little. Afterward I feel like I don't know what else to do after my "rumination session". I actually feel a little scared and out of my element since I spent the whole month getting used to obsessing(Even though I've been through those kind of months since early '03). And does anyone here have any more techniques to use along with the "repeating the obsessive thought" technique?

Another problem is that, before I got struck with this month of OCD, I was planning on doing certain things and I had in mind to do specific things relating to my hobbies, but now that I'm starting to feel more calm and my true thoughts are feeling more and more un-oppressed, I kind of feel as though the true feeling isn't there any more, even though it was the OCD that kept me from doing what I WANTED to do. I don't want to fool myself or anything, but something inside me wants to go back to my hobbies, but I feel unmotivated since I feel as though I burnt myself out on the desire over the month while yearning to do them.