Re: Picking my skin raw...
I spoke somewhat bluntly throughout this post, it might disgust some people. My apologies.
I know exactly what you are talking about, and I have for years felt the same way, except, as gross as this sounds, I have always had an intense craving to eat the scabs and skin etc, not just a desire to pick at them. It was a manifested habit, I assume a learned habit, from when I was a child..
Anyway, for a long time I would go through the cycle of washing my face, scrubbing all of the blood away, and attempting not to touch anything, hoping that my complexion would clear up by the following morning. But alas I would always break, and begin picking at myself again, causing my self esteem to go down in the process, making me feel daunted and defeated.
Sometimes I would not even conciously be aware that I was doing it, and often I would be compelled to do it while I was, like you said, stressed out working on home work, or sitting at the computer, because my mind would wander, my hands would always end up on my face as I read, and for some reason those crusted bumps were too much to resist.
In the past couple of days I have made the best strides of my life in quitting this habit, but only with the blemishes on my face and chest.. I still knaw my fingers up fairly badly, as well as scabs on my hands, wrists, and legs.. resulting in scars upon scars..
I think like any addiction, this one can only really be kicked with the proper amount of determination. I myself have plenty of bodily addictions, I bit my nails down below the skin for years.. I gave it up for the most part, however still chew on them now and then.
Sometimes it just takes a lot of effort and time to overcome such a habit. You need to keep trying until one day you feel the strong will to really commit to quitting. Then with every passing day you will feel more incentive to keep going.
I speak though, totally based on my own expeirences, and yours may be very differently founded than my own, requiring very different advice. Regarding your question of::
"...anti-depressants...could this be the culprit?"
I am affraid I am not qualified enough to answer it. But I hope someone who visits this thread will be able to.
As far as facial clenser goes once you make some progress::
1.New Clean and Clear OIL-FREE Continuous Control Acne Wash [in the purple bottle]
Probably the best stuff I have purchased.. But I wouldent recommend it if you have naturally dry skin, because this stuff might dry it out too much.
Good Luck to you!
Last edited by Pres; 03-10-2005 at 09:10 PM.