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imunknown · 06-01-2005, 06:25 AM

Hi, this is my first post to the ocd board. I had a session with a psychiatrist. I told him about how sometimes I get these thoughts in my head that will not go away no matter how hard I try to distract myself. They diagnosed ocd in addition to my depression & panic disorder. I am a mess.

The thoughts that I have are really gross. Don't read on if you don't want to hear them. I think about embalming, dead babies, hitting a baby with a hockey stick and having it basically explode in a cloud of blood, putting my cats to sleep, my mother dying, eating dead cats, and there are probably more, but those are the worst.

Does anyone else have gross thoughts like that? I don't seem to have any compulsions, though. Anyone else in the same boat?

princesscol · 06-01-2005, 11:32 AM

YES!!! I am in the same situation. I have GAD and for the past couple of days I started to think about going crazy (i'm sure you know that feeling) and I started thinking about voices in my head. I know I don't them but I just started thinking about it one day and now it won't leave my mind. I've been driving myself crazy for like a week already. Everything else is going well in my life even the panic and anxiety are doing better but I do think I've developed something like what you describe. And I have the same creepy thoughts. I think about the most disgusting, evil thing that could happen and I scared the hell out of myself. Don't worry you are not alone. I've thought about hitting a baby and things like that. It really scares you when you think of it but you know that you could never harm someone or thing. Just know that your mind plays tricks on you sometimes and I try to remember that.