OCD or Anxiety? Can't stop being afraid. - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

Yog-Sothoth · 06-04-2005, 08:50 PM

Sorry to bother everyone again, but things have really started getting worse lately now that I've stopped taking Zoloft (It wasn't doing much for me, anyway).

My parents are out of town from now till Tuesday and I'm terrifed something bad will happen and then what? I had to go to the hospital last week when my parents were out of town that time, and I'm worried that maybe it'll happen again, only worse now.

Plus, all the little rules I usually have at night (when my panic and OCD really acts up badly) have gotten worse. Like, usually I'll think "I have to turn off the TV RIGHT NOW or I'll die/something bad will happen." But lately it happens like this, I'll think that, then I'll think "or maybe something bad will happen if I DO turn off the TV." So that means I'd lose either way. And that just makes me worry that maybe something bad really IS going to happen and that's why...

What do you think? Have any of you experience this or should I really worry? It's really bad now because it's dark out and I've got a headache and just keep thinking I'll get sicker and sicker or who knows?

Also, I'm having really bad trouble sleeping. I can't relax and stop worrying until about five in the morning each night. Does anyone have any tips? I would REALLY appreciate it.

yfguitarist · 06-04-2005, 10:04 PM

I can't relax either. I used to have trouble sleeping, I would worry so much. I never stayed up as late as you, though. I don't know, I've never been on meds or even seen a doctor, sorry. I hope you find something else. Have you tried prayer? That got me through some of my obsessions

Yog-Sothoth · 06-05-2005, 01:48 AM

Thanks for the reply. =D

I would try prayer, but I'm not really a Christian anymore. So I don't know what to do.

luvangels · 06-05-2005, 06:53 AM

Hi Yog-Sothoth,

I have experienced similar thoughts as your are going through at this time. I do not know how this behavior is truly diagnosed, but I would say that a large percentage of your rituals are anxiety driven.

I am by nature a worrier. You name it, I can worry about it. When I was young, I use to think if I got close to a flame or something burning, I would have "fire" in my hair. I was compulsively asking my siblings if there was fire in my hair, and of course there was not.

My therapist said that these types of thoughts about our health and/or our well being has something to do with "feeling safe". I have also been told that worrying about our health (dying, getting terminally ill, etc) is a case of "Chronic Anxiety".

My advise to you is to find a medicine (Dr prescribed), that will work for you. I am currently taking Paxil. It is the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Medications are created to assist us with these issues. I also suggest some therapy.

Please take care of yourself and I will keep good thoughts for you.

Please let me know how it goes.

Warmly,

Luvangels

Yog-Sothoth · 06-06-2005, 05:31 AM

Thanks I appreciate the replies.

I've tried Paxil, Zoloft and Wellbutrin. None worked and I'm honestly not going to try again because nothing else will, I'm sure.

Sorry, I'm in a horrible mood. For the past two days, I've been up all night. Last night, it was worrying that kept me up. Then I fell asleep at six or seven AM and slept till five PM. Now I'm up again and it's six AM and I'm very angry about it and my chest hurts, which makes me worry about heart attacks.

I'm really just getting sick of all this BS. I'm glad medicine worked for you, but I don't know what I'm going to do. It just did nothing for me and things have only gotten worse.