I think my OCD is coming back. What do I do? - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

Gwenneth · 06-08-2005, 03:25 AM

I have had mild OCD all my life. It runs in the family. When I was nine I asked my mom why everyone always wanted me to have her check my Holloween candy. She told me it was because twenty years before someone had poisend a bunch of kids. I don't know were. It was cold and I was sick. On the way home I ate some french fries that were in the car from erlyer. They made me feel gross. It triggered my OCD. I didn't eat french fries for a year and a half. I didn't have candy for two. I was afriad everything I ate was poisend. I stoped eating unless my mom tried it first. At nine I was tall and 105 pounds.I droped to 87 during around a year and a half. Then we were on a trip and we had a minor car accsedent. It shocked me so much I actuley ate food. With out someone else testing it. About a week later I realized that I didn't want to be like that anymore so I got meds. My mom had been trying to get me to take them. They worked the first day. After about a year I think I was able to quit them. I could control it on my own. Not long after my grandmother passed away. Yesterday marked two years. I am know really depressed and am having a hard time controling it. The food thing isn't back but it's something else. I have been having bad dreames every night. And know I barly sleep. Am I obsessed about the dreams? or is it some kind of anxiety? Or am I just depressed? Can anyone help?

Kathrin74 · 06-08-2005, 03:53 AM

Do you FEEL you are obsessing about the dreams?

It is hard to tell from knowing so little if it is OCD-related or some other type of anxiety, or depression. OCD usually feels like... well, you obsess about something but at the same time it also feels like you "have to" do something to stop the anxiety - like checking, or even just a mental compulsion to try to stop the thoughts... does it feel like that?

How long have the bad dreams been going on?

Kathrin

Gwenneth · 06-08-2005, 06:50 AM

Like a week. I donno I'm just scared to sleep. Maybe it's Not the OCD. I sleep but I sleep during the day. It's like I afraid to sleep at night. What Does that sound like?

sobs · 06-08-2005, 09:43 AM

Hi Gwenneth,
I can't tell either, whether it is OCD, or just anxiety, because you had several nights of bad dreams. Have you tried playing some soft music that you enjoy, while you are sleeping? This would also be a wonderful time for you to check into "lucid dreaming". That is when you can make yourself wake up when you are having a dream that you don't like. You can do a search just on "lucid dreaming".
Also, if you can do something really peaceful to you, before you go to sleep...that may help you. Or watch part of a favorite movie, before you sleep. There are many things that you can do, to help you with your dreams! Let us know how you are doing.

Gwenneth · 06-08-2005, 12:56 PM

Well I have been trying the movie thing. I've been watching my favotit Harry Potter movie. The prolbem is I can't remember the dreams. I just know they are bad when I wake up. Thanks for the tip I'll have a look at that.