| OCD and bowel syndrome?
Since I was in junior high or so I've always been worried about bathrooms. It's not the fact that I'm afraid to go, but its the fact that I HAVE to go.
Everyday I'm worried about driving through traffic, going to school, going out with friends cause I feel like there wouldn't be an access to a bathroom that I'll have to go #2 in. I know it kind of sounds messed up and funny sometimes cause you really don't need to go that often but I constantly sometimes feel the urge to go and have anxiety/panic attacks. The thing that I'm not sure if its actually a OCD or maybe both is the fact that most of the times I go, I really do have to go.
I have a pretty good life, and I'm pretty active but this fear/obsession bothers me so much. Whenever I go out - I have to check out the traffic news (so I'm not stuck in traffic when I have to go), scope out the bathrooms to places I want to go , go to the bathroom several times before I do something. However I feel perfectly fine when I'm not in such situations. When I'm at home I never really ahve these feelings cause I feel like I can access the bathroom whenever I want. Places like the library, shopping malls, I feel fine since they have restrooms there.
I'm not really sure what to do or who to talk to. My parents often get upset at me since I always have to go to the bathroom and my girlfriend goes crazy sometimes too. I've taken Zoloft and Xanax in the past but I don't remember it helping me at all.
I have other small compulsions too and little ticks like blinking and making small noises. But i feel like the bowel movement is the biggest problem and want to get it treat as soon as possible. Its been happening to me for the last 6 years and I feel like I should finally get professional help.
Last edited by lakeview; 08-08-2005 at 11:55 PM.
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