He also said that I need to start taking 10-15% of my time spending it on just ME.
That is almost impossible. I am married, mother of 3, 17,15, and 5.
Plus, I babysit at home part time.
I told him about my history;
Got married at 18, my husband was shot in the head and killed
when I was 24. at that time I had my 2 boys, 31/2 and 1.
3 yrs. later my brother died of cancer.
Got remarried at 32.
A year later I had my little girl.
Quit working at a bank after daughter was born.
After she was born, I got very depressed and got on Paxil.
About 3 yrs ago I started abusing pain meds (lortab).
Got up to 20 or more pills a day.
My friend who I confided in, called a dr. and got me in the next
day, and I started Methadone treatment.
Got over the treatment, everything was ok, then my son had surgery.
Ended up taking a few of his pills, now I am back on the methadone again,
but only 2 pills a day.
Had a recent upsetting thing happen to me, about 1 week ago, I had a full time
girl I was babysitting, and the mother called the morning I was supposed to have
her and said that she was finding someone else to watch her.
I had the girl over a year. I asked her if I had done something wrong; she said no.
Well she ends up spreading a rumer that I slapped the girl across the face.
WRONG! I would never do that.
I called the mother, she was very blunt towards me, I told her to stop
ruining my reputation because I never hit her daughter.
(This is what I had told my counseler).
Also, I told him that I was still on the Paxil.
He asked me what dosage, and I told him 60mg
and he about fell out of his chair.
I told him that a different therapist had suggested I do that.
He said that is quite a HIGH dosage.
I guess he thought he could diagnose me just by my personality
and what I was saying to him and my actions? I dont know.
well thats it for now.