JustDave4now

Got a quick question..

I am Pure O basicly, Something I have developed reflexs to deal with. Those stray thoughts used to play havock on me until I taught myself how to shuffle them aside with a compulsion of a prayer. My my, I have found I say that prayer allot now That i am consious about it.

but anywho, beyond that..

I don't see much talk about becoming obsessed with anything but odd thoughts or counting or germs.


I have a problem where I can become obsessed with finding the best price on an item, or obessed with researching it till it becomes insane and has no benifit, and then after buying it, I obsess with worry that I didn't get the best deal or the finest product.

I obsess with something I want, some trinket, and though I can't afford it, I think about it constantly, until someway, I wiggle it so I get it. I stack up the reasons, and sell things I shouldn't have, all to achieve it. And when I get that trinket in my hands, the want goes away. Oh I still like it, but now it doesn't have its flair and I worry I didn't buy the very best one.

I obsess on the computer and forums, LOL, and when I should be washing clothes or cleaning I am posting and searching. It pulls at me, I need to do it, for some odd reason. Now I could be watching tv, or reading a book, but no, its the computer. Or a computer game that I can't let go.

Sometimes this ruins my life in a way, because other things are left out, like maybe taking a shower and getting dressed and doing things I should be doing that day. If I am not careful it will take over my whole day and I will sit about doing my obsession.

Oddly this varies, depends on what I am into. But what ever it is, it will be an obsession. I fight this, but its like fighting a landslide.

Is this OCD, or is OCD something differnt entirely. I would sure like to know, because it crushes my life, and though my wife is very understanding, I hide much of it. To the point where I sneak a laptop into a bathroom so I can research my latest craise and try to be quiet so she doen't know.

IS the O in OCD really Obsession or is it more like Unwanted Obsessions.