chriss02

ok, so today was going really well for me but usually in the overall state i'm kind of down in the dumps. my question is am i just down from my ocd which just keeps coming and coming or am i down from depression or maybe both (which i initially thought)? it's just that everything today for me was going great until i started reading about all these people with depression and it got me depressed and really scared. and i know how people with ocd can kind of convince themselves that they have something they really don't. keep in mind i've never really had the fear of getting depressed. i don't think so anyway.

so i'm just wondering is it just the ocd or am i - medically speaking- officially depressed? i know i should see a doc but i can't plus i always get the fear that their diagnosis could be wrong.


i'm mostly over it now but tonight i got really scared and really depressed feeling after reading about depression and lost a sense of self and nothing seemed important anymore. i'd rather have ocd than have depression anyday. atleast with ocd i care about things. i just OVER care. wow this is amazing right now for the first time in a LONG TIME ocd doesn't feel like the worst thing in the world.

Like i said before, since ocd has taken a big role in my life i've just overall been a generally more unhappy person even though mostly everyone i know doesn't know that. but i've always cared about things and over analyzed those things i cared about accept for that experience that took place tonight where i got freaked out and depressed where nothing seemed important. did my ocd just scare me and did i just overreact somehow to reading about people with clinical depression? because i have ocd, will it be impossible for me to fall into a state so low that i care about nothing like people with major depression do?

some input would be very much appreciated but i won't be back for a few days to read them. thanks everyone

PS: i can feel it right now, a fear/obsession is coming upon me that i will become so depressed that i care about nothing. i hope it never really happens