a few thoughts - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

lifecanbegood · 08-31-2005, 11:01 PM

hey all,

Thanks for the responses. To be honest, sometimes I don't like coming on here because the messages are too depressing. Last thing an OCD'er needs to hear is about someone else and how they feel they can't make it. Indeed, this is not my case. I'll take the battle, but sometimes, I feel that this may never change and I won't be normal again.

I actually just graduated university and am planning to write the LSAT again - oy, more stress. Indeed, as "gatsbyluvr1920" emphatically stated, first year college students are unaware of life's struggles. In my first year - pre-any anxiety - my biggest worry was who I would land during frosh week, the best method for funneling beer and which fraternity to join. As an aside: I mastered the latter two! As time goes on, everyone finally learns something about themselves.

My question is: I know I used to have panic attacks and when I took celexa I was cured. Of course I went off and had a relapse. But has anyone has symptoms of excessive worry and OCD and been cured by a medication???

As well, I have always found myself to be as strong as anything: do people find that OCD can make you think that you can never overcome it. Ahhh, the doubting disease indeed!

lifecanbegood

GatsbyLuvr1920 · 09-01-2005, 07:34 AM

Yes, yes, yes! That's exactly what it's like! All they care about is getting plastered! I, mean, I realize that a lot of college kids like to drink, but the first night you're here? You can't wait until you're settled in?! Life's just all fun and games- it seems that, even at my school, which is highly academically based, work comes second and fun comes first. Last night, I was flipping through my psych book, writing notations and highlighting important key passages that will turn into research proposals, while everyone else was watching movies and IM'ing the people in the next room! I've had a good day today because my class was at 8:00. I'm a night owl and a morning person, so I love getting up and starting the day. It's very nice because hardly anyone is up and moving and there's just silence and time for me to be by myself and reflect on life. That's what's probably making me the most upset is that I can't have the nights to myself any more. My mom loves to sleep, so I'm used to staying up really late without interruptions and getting up early to find that I'm the only one awake. The latter is certainly true here, but my roommate stays up late, too, which is cool because I won't have to worry about disturbing her if I need to study in the wee hours, but, like last night, for example- she talked on the phone with her boyfriend at 12:30, knowing that I had an 8:00 a.m. class!

I need silence to sleep, and hearing a telephone conversation certainly doesn't fulfill that requirement. It's different if she stays up later than I do on the computer or reading or listening to her headphones because I can't hear the noise, but come on! The phone?! I would never even think of talking to someone when I know that someone else was trying to sleep. I'm always afraid that I'll disturb her by making noise in the morning, and I TRY to be quiet and respectful! I guess I'm weird and the OCD makes me overly considerate of others' feelings- I'm certainly not the stereotypical "self-absorbed" teenager! Talk to you soon!

-GatsbyLuvr1920-

lifecanbegood · 09-02-2005, 03:21 PM

Indeed, roomates can be very difficult. Just try and get along as much as possible and be lucky that she doesn't stumble in at 3am with her bf -- or does she!!!??!! I disagree with your unwillingness to be treated differently. You have a disability that others do not have and this will surely cause you more hardship. It is only fair to take advantage of all they offer. Trust me, there will come a time when you will need some accomodations. From what I remember, you can even get more time on an exam -- why not??? I guess some people are different and I commend you if you dont want to take extra privileges.

I must ask, are you on medication or did you ever switch. As of now, I tell the doctor that I want to switch meication and we may do it soon. I just find that I responded so well to celexa last time and this time I am not getting the optimal effect.

Although drinking is not all colege is about, you should def go out and fun too, it helps to ease the transition into school.

all the best,

lifecanbegood