OCD strikes again! - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

Punkdizzle · 09-11-2005, 09:43 AM

My ocd has been pretty tame for about a month now but last night it wanted to make sure I knew it was still there I guess…

Here is the story: yesterday morning I woke up feeling a bit off, lots anxiety for no real reason and a bunch of racing intrusive thoughts. Ok no big deal I have went through that a lot before I know what it is and I know it can’t hurt me. As the day went on I started feeling better and my mind calmed down quite a bit, my wife and I even went out with some friends and had a good time.

Now it gets weird: when I was getting ready for bed last night I noticed my toothbrush was not where it should be. It had been moved from one hole on the holder to another. As soon as I saw this my mind just went nuts with “what if” thoughts, “what if” someone was in our house when we were out and put poison on my tooth brush and then if someone was in here “what if” they messed with something else.
It just kind of went on from there and I ended up throwing my toothbrush out and just using mouthwash. I didn’t think to ask my wife if she moved it till after I was done freaking out. And it turns out she had moved it at some point that afternoon but I didn’t notice it until I was getting ready for bed. So after learning that I felt pretty stupid and the what if thinking went away but the anxiety stuck around for a while after.

I really don’t know why I freaked out over that. I don’t have a compulsion to have things in order or anything. Has anyone else had something like this happen to them? I am just glad I found the reason for it being moved or I would still be freaking out I am sure.

bkm4673 · 09-11-2005, 11:56 AM

yes that happens to me all the time. i get anxiety from cator oil i dont know why but it triggers something in my head and i always think its on doors and peoples hands etc...but yeah i do that with like anything toothbrush, comb,cups or my protein shakes i trip out.... are you on meds? i think you told me before..do they help?

Punkdizzle · 09-11-2005, 01:49 PM

i take xanax on a as needed basis.. works really good for me as it seems to chase out the thoughts before they become obsessions. i didnt take one last night because i was able to get a reason to why my toothbrush was moved and that shut the ocd up. but if i had not had a reason i probably would have had to take one because there is no way id be able to stop thinking about it on my own..

what is cator oil?

bkm4673 · 09-11-2005, 02:02 PM

castor oil is put is some shampoos not many but some i dont know exactly what its for but it seems to trigger something in my head and makes my ocd way worse, my famiy thinks its all in my head but im 32 and i know how i have felt all my life so i know it makes it worse. but i do alot of stuff like you were saying like i trip out though when i go down a shampoo isle praying i dont get any on me or breath it in , yea its sounds lame but its true, embarrassing too. ocd has messed with my relationships with females and im a slightly above average looking guy but ten i get totally obsessed with sex in a relationship and my ocd kicks in im nice then i dont think we should be dating its crazy. praying lexapro helps....

bkm4673 · 09-14-2005, 08:52 PM

i wanted to tell you that i went to a nuerologist today to see if i had anything seriously wrong besides ocd and he walked in and said he just gave someone shots of botox i started tripping in my head because then he started checkin my reflexes and touching me everywhere i got so panicked and my ocd was getting nuts and i was thinking omg maybe he rubbed it in me not on purpose but he was messin w/my feet my head in my hair neck i was trippin as i got home. its crazy im going bizeerck.