louane

needing help here thanks Ok, I will try to make this as short as possible. I am not for sure if I have ocd, I never thought I did because I have no rotine, my house is always messing,,,
I do count all the time in my head, I dont know why, but I just count, if I do have something to count like blocks on a building or something I will count that, but usually just count....
At the present time I am going though this obsseive thinking that my surgar is always droping all the time,,,, it dont matter that I take a surgar test and it always, and I mean always fine, even if i havnt ate all day, its still fine,,, but i cant quit thinking that my surgar is droping,,,, I tell my self all the time that its not my suragr, even when the proof is right in front of my face I still freak out that my surgar is droping,,,, it throws me into a panic attack every time,,,,,, i try so hard to stop it, I talk to my self out loud that its not my surgar that its just a panic attack or anxiety,,,, but my mind wont let me believe it,,,
I have suffered, and I mean suffered with anxiety and panic attack for over eight years, but this is the worst......
Can anybody give me any advice,,, I am at my wits end, I am scared to leave my house afraid my surgar will drop even though I know that its not my surgar,,,,,I take food with me, candy soda , protien, but that still dont help,,,, my mind tells me that that is not enought,,
I even wrote down on paper over hundred times "its not my surgar", I even tried telling my self "so what if it is my surgar then I will eat and be fine,, but still no go,, ,I have been doing this for over three months, I have went to the doctor, they told me my surgar was fine,,, but I cant get my mind to beleive it.
I cant take anti depressent, I do take nerve pills when my panic attack get to bad,,,'
If anybody can tell me something that would get me over this, I would be so greateful. I am driving my family crazy with it and my self..
thanks
louane
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