so angry over int. thoughts - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

basal1999 · 01-12-2006, 07:22 AM

i am so upset with myself right now!!

how can i still let this get to me????

i swear it ties in with my physical, i have a yucky stomach
right now and feel panicky, i am so good with the self talk
but still shiver inside..i want to go for a walk but feel to weak.

and of course feeling yucky calls up my int thought/panic
memories in my mind...i swear it's all tied together.....anyone
agree?

kris - taking deep breaths and fighting taking a 1/2 xanex,
but i'm the first one to tell someone else to take it....

ckjk5 · 01-12-2006, 03:06 PM

Hey, just wanted to let you know that I'm where you're at. I can't believe I let the same thoughts bother me this way. I mean, how many times can I fear the same things?? And, when I'm not feeling well (as you said you are now) it always gets worse. You post often on my threads, so I just wanted to let you know that I understand too. I could have words of wisdom about ocd for everyone else, but when it comes to myself, I'm hopeless. Hang in there....
carla
ckjk

simplyj · 01-15-2006, 08:05 PM

I can sooo relate to the anger part. My OCD thoughts sneaks up on me all the time and makes me feel like crap all the time. I could be having a good OCD day, going about my daily activities and feeling optimistic, then out of the blue, a thought pops into my mind that makes me shiver, I start analyzing it (which of course we shouldn't do) then challenging my own beliefs making sure that I am still sane. Then somewhere during this excruciating ruminating, the reminder that it's OCD jumps in and then I go DUH! you know what this is. Don;t buy into it. I do the Brainlock exercises Relabel, reattribute, refocus, revalue...over and over until I start to feel better. Then I get upset with myself for falling into the OCD trap for the thousandth time. Then when all is past, I feel better that I freaked out about the thought in the first place because then I reassure myself that it's OCD and not me. To use your word...OCD itself is yucky! Hang in there, it gets better.

simplyj.

iyami · 01-16-2006, 01:15 AM

how you feel emotionally is directly ted o how you feel physically, i should know, i mademyself so sick they had to pull me out of school for a "break" so i could get my anxiety udner contole before i landed myself in a hospital~ i managed to get really sick a month ago too, part of it was definitly from anxiety which comes from my OCD. ill nevertake meds for it, OCD is part of my personality i my opinion, and i like myself the way i am

its taken years of work, but ive gotten Alot better about those nasty little OCD habbits weve all come to know and loath, without meds, i can keep the habbits that i like, and get rid of the ones that harm me like overanalizeing and being overly self-aware when trying to fall sleep, OCD effects me severly, but i still controle myself <3