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Old 03-09-2006, 07:14 PM   #1
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Petrified of blood and hitting someone in my car! Help!!!

I have been here before, but not for awhile. I have OCD and it has been a huge part of my life for about 2 yrs now. I started taking Prozac (20mg) about a year and a few months ago. I stopped a few months ago cold turkey and that was not a good idea. I have been having worse obsessions, worries and compulsions. I am back on my medication, but its been only 3 days. If you have been on the medication, stop taking it, then start again how soon until you will it start working again? That is the first of a few questions. If you have the patience, please read a little about my OCD.
I am absolutely petrified I will hit/run over someone on the road. Any bump or anything I have to look in my rearview mirror to see if it really was just a bump. Pretty much daily I will drive back around to the spot I ran over a bump to make double sure. I live in an apt and many many times I will drive around the complex 2 or so times, to make sure I never hit anything. I am sure I look like a lunatic. I work at a childcare center and I have to pick up school kids and lately I just hate doing it. I am especially terrified of hitting a child. Today as a great example I was in my car ready to back up and a kid came up behind the car next to me, with their parent. I know the kid went around to the other side, I backed up and looked, but my mind still worries I hit the kid. I am exhausted and getting to the point I dont want to drive anymore. This kills me because I used to LOVE to drive, it was my time away if I needed alone time. All of this is very recent.
I am also very afraid of getting HIV/AIDS. This worry sometimes gets meshed into the other one. I worry I hit someone and then blood will get on me.
I cant take it anymore. I want to go back to the days I could back up in my car without my heart beating out of my chest.
Does anyone have a similar obsession? If so, how do you handle it? I cant waste anymore of my life driving around in circles looking for something thats not there (knock on wood, I am also very superstitious). I have also called non-emergency dispatch, but I am afraid they will start recognizing me. What can I do to help myself. I am also not in the position in my life right now where I can get counseling, I just cant afford it. Please help.

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Old 03-10-2006, 07:49 PM   #2
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Re: Petrified of blood and hitting someone in my car! Help!!!

Is this too weird or something?

Old 03-10-2006, 11:43 PM   #3
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Re: Petrified of blood and hitting someone in my car! Help!!!

Hi, I don't have the same obsession you do of hitting someone with a car, but I have read and heard of it, so you are definitely not the only one. I think it is actually kind of common. If you cant afford counceling right now, the best advice I could give is to get some different books on OCD. I like Imp of the Mind, Tormenting Thoughts and Secret Rituals, and Brain Lock is a good one. There are some tips in them for self help.

As far as I know CBT is the best thing though (although I haven't yet started it myself), so hopefully eventually you can go to a therapist that does this. Some therapist go by a sliding scale, so maybe you can look into this.

Hopefully I've helped atleast a little.

Old 03-22-2006, 11:01 AM   #4
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Re: Petrified of blood and hitting someone in my car! Help!!!

I have the similar things about afraid I hit something. Or I run over a bump, and it jerks the car a little bit, and it's like I am not paying attn to my driving, or in a daze. I then say, OH NO, did I run over someone. I can't see them on the ground, Oh and I turn around and go back, once I look and see nothing, I usually am ok.

Also, I know when I leave the house, I push the button for the garage door to go down. But 1 block away, I doubt that I closed the garage. So, I drive back and double check. But this is done almost every time I leave the house. I feel sometimes in a daze. Does this relate?

Old 03-22-2006, 07:16 PM   #5
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Re: Petrified of blood and hitting someone in my car! Help!!!

i understand the checking thing. i always have to go back and do my compulstion, which is blinking/ touching. i dont get scared when backing up but i have to hold my breathe when i see an animal because iam afraid they will run out and i will kill them.
there are also workbooks out there. i saw at a bookstore there was a book called "getting a handle on your OCD workbook." but word of advice, some ocd books about compulsions and stuff can make you worse. i have read a few OCD books and all the sudden i had all these new compulsions.

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