Do other people do this??? - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

pucca_chick · 06-15-2006, 07:24 AM

im not diagnosed or nething iver never bin to doc or shared any of this with ne1. but all my life aas far back as i can remeber i get these obbsessions. it can be over nething, a tv show, the characters, music, the artrists but nearly always its a person i vaguley know,want to know or do know.theyre almost always older than me tho.its not just a stupid little thought here and there, its all day. i go outside and spend hours going over scenarios that never happend, will never happen. i build relationships with them in my head, invent conversations and situations that never happned. this can last for a long long time until it sort of just clicks off again ad then i find sumthing else.

wen i realise it there is always sum story in my head that im continuing. im 18 am i not rather old to be doing this. do other people do this. the thing is its never a sexual obbsession, just a strange freindly close relationship. i also have obbsessed over morbid thoughts before, i day dream about horrible traumatic situations and there affects for an hour or two at a time altho id be devasted if any of ti ever ever happened(is that evil???). sumtimes i just want to sit and be left alone to think, there is to much in my head and i dnt do things i shud do like school revision and stuff.i also spend hours sumtimes awake at night doing this, thinking harc about everything, obbsessions, people, and also people helping me is another major obbsessive thought and also i go over and over probelms, i esscalate them by accident, cover all scenarios over and over again-it gets a bit irrationale.

what is this. like i said im not diagnosed, i have had spells of having to take out plugs and switches, close drawers and cupboards, and i occasionally get intrusive thoughts and thoughts of me harming others-even tho i wudnt. plz help explain this, is this normal??? xox

GatsbyLuvr1920 · 06-15-2006, 09:33 AM

In a word, "yes." You pretty much described me with the "scenarios" that you make up in your head. I do that all of the time, mostly with people I've made up, though, not actual people. I do have to recite movie/TV quotes out loud and "become" the person, but I only make up new situations with my cartoon characters that I've created. I've done it all of my life, too (I'll be 19 in August), and is why I loved playing with Barbies because I could just sit and talk to myself. Do you get actual obsessions with the TV shows or artists themselves? Like, you have to research everything about them, or you stockpile facts and information on them that you can recite at the drop of a hat? I do this as well. Write back soon, and if you have any questions, feel free to ask!

-GatsbyLuvr1920-

pucca_chick · 06-15-2006, 10:20 AM

OMG yes!! ive always done that. i can entertain myself all day, i love being on my own sumtimes cos sumtimes its just more interestting. wen i was yong i cud invent all sorts of characters and play in my head, i loved playing barbies and figures cos i had so many little worlds.

and yes, i get compleltey obbessed. as in i search and searchj the net for interveiws, pictures, anything.once i was obssesed with the tv show charmed, i eneded up collecting over 800 pictures if tghem from the net, i stuck them about the place, used them as wallpapers and everything for my comp. i have got obbsessed over artists too, like searched and spent alot of money on stuff like albums and merchandise. is but were does normal obbsession end and unhealthy begin. tell me about sum of ur obbsessions. thanx xox

GatsbyLuvr1920 · 06-15-2006, 02:11 PM

Hey, pucca chick! Well, I have both OCD and Asperger's (high-functioning autism), so I have a lot of obsessions, both good and bad. My Asperger's brings the obsessions about the TV shows/movies, as well as Frank Sinatra, the 1920's, American history, biochemistry, neuropsychology, and a slew of other things. These are the things that I have to research about endlessly for new information. However, I enjoy embracing these obsessions. My OCD obsessions are what are hell, though. My main OCD obsessions are of a sexual, blasphemous, and violent nature, and when I'm in a waxing period (I'm in a waning period, now), I obsess the whole day. Sometimes I'll get incapacitated, and I can't get out of bed because I'm paralyzed with fear and panic attacks. Anyway, for TV shows, my obsessions mostly revolve around I Love Lucy. I collect Lucy memorabillia; I have been since my 13th birthday. My birthday, ironically, is the same day as Lucille Ball's, and my due date is Vivian Vance (Ethel)'s birthday! I was literally destined! I also am highly interested in Degrassi: The Next Generation, as well as certain cartoons, especially Ed, Edd n Eddy. I love that show because Double D is like a male version of myself- an obsessive-compulsive science geek!

For movies, I have three favorites: Chicago, The Aviator, and A Beautiful Mind. I love the last two because they deal with mental illness (The Aviator is actually about OCD) and how it can cause people to be ostracized by the public. It also shows the relationship between mental illness and intelligence, and how psychological disorders inhibit one's creativity. When I'm upset, I watch them because it's the only thing that shows how I'm feeling. As for Chicago, I know every line, song, and gesture in the movie, and I usually only watch it alone (along with the other two) because I HAVE to say certain quotes and make certain movements. I have an odd ability to mimic accents and intonations, so that's why I repeat movie quotes a lot. What are some of yours?

-GatsbyLuvr1920-

fallen_angel · 06-15-2006, 02:11 PM

this is really interesting, this thread has only just jogged my memory but from the age of about 5 or 6 i used to do what i called "making up stories" where id shut myself im my mum's room and act out all these make believe worlds with characters etc id invented, always talking out loud and prancing about the room, this continued right through til i was about 12, id get really embarrased if anyone overheard or caught me. i also used to write make believe newspaper articles and stories often involving famous people, and again id be really embarrased if anyone saw or read them and id hide what i was writing if anyone came in.
As ive gotten older its now been replaced with flying around the room with my cd player turned up full blast, acting out situations in my head and imagining certain things happening that id like to. Again i get embarrased if anyone catches me doing this as i know its not really normal, but i cant function properly unless i do it, i guess it helps to calm my mind.
Ive just been diagnosed bipolar and wonder if this influences this kind of behaviour in me, i did have OCD from the age of about 7 through until i was around 14 but its calmed right down now