pucca_chick

im not diagnosed but after reading many posts im curious as to what the funny little habits r that OCD-ers get, there are sum strange ones, how did they start,y these particualr habits, were do these come from. has any of this ever made u do sum irrational things-knowing its irrational but still u simply have to do it just in case cos u firmly beleive it can and will happen(whatever the consequence is). have u done these little things all ur life and never noticed they r OCDish-thats like me a bit, altho ive never talked to ne1 about it altho they comment on the obbsesive compuilsivness of it.

for example, i remeber thinking wen little that i had to turn everything in my room off or my family will die, i wud rub the switch, turn it off, lie in bed and not be able to go to sleep till i checked it, id get up and do it maybe two more times. i did this with touching things, in a shop my mom was maybe shouting as we had to rush outa a shop or sumthing, but i had to step back and touch a peice of clothing(only the odd time tho), or else every1 wud die.i still sumtimes do this, its a pet hate of my freind, i like to touch the corners of my things with my index finger and press-but i do this rarley, i dont obsses over it, but the odd time it just creeps in and suddenly i must do it-weird.

i sumtimes, extremley rarley am walking along and realise im counting my steps in my head without realisng. another phase i go thru every few months is repeating , pronouncing and sppelling the word like a typewriter in my head letter by letter, its always the last word that was spoken in a sentence, or sumtimes its just bin random words, but this only comes in waves.

i also feel strange with symetry sumtimes, i dnt know if this is it like in OCD but its like for example, theres a glass on the table, i wud maybe look at half way between the length of the table sideways, find the middle of it, it takes me a few seconds and i keep moving it from side to side but its frustrating cos it just never feels rite, like its ever in the exact centre, i press the glass down hoping the centre of the bottom of the glass touched the table but it doesnt-it ****es me off. i then fool myself into beleiveing its all symetrical. ive also had the thing with lining up chairs with the table at four sides, and i fix papers and stuff wen the point is hanging off the edge of the table. but the rest of the time im an extremely messy person-weird.

has ne1 ever done anything irrational, u sorta knew it was not normal but u just'had' to do it. i remember a few yrs ago i went thru a phase were i was convinced there was fire climbing its way up our stairs, my parents bedroom is first, then mine and my bros. i thought i cud hear it, see the flickering flames. i was up and down checking, id stand on the landing looking down, then i very nearly(i told myelf to catch a grip) was about to sleep outside my parents bedroom on the floor. i also belive for a while that pple were in our house at night(breaking in, or wen im alone i get a feeling that sum1 is n house watching and followin me but theyre hiding i know its impossible, logic stops me from acting on it, i just get uncomfortable) and going to murder my family, i cudnt forget it and kept having the intrusive images and day dreaming of the gory details, i started looking for things in my room to protect myself with. i sorta lost touch-is that weird for sum1 to do, or do most people just dot this???

Sorry it was soo long, pple please tell me ur litlle obbsessions, anyting weird and wonderful id be interested to hear-ever done anything a bit wacky cos of it, what do ut hink started it and wen did they start??? thanx xox