Did I really do this or did i just imagine it?! - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

LoveIsBlindness · 10-21-2006, 02:09 AM

I need to know right now honistly guys, do any of you at all ever sit there and think of somthin somthin u COULD have done that was evil or wrong or cheating examples u see a girl and then u imagine kissing her u think to urself wait oh no that vision seemed like it rele happened.....o no....did it happen !?!? omg and u focus on it all day untill the idea of u actaly NOTTT doing it becomes impossable to belive because u just focus on it so much and then u feel like u rele did it ur convinced and u beat urself up for it ? now it dosent have to be that situation it could be somthing WAY worse like hurting someone or somthing simple like making a traffic violation. Does this happen to other people? Is there anyone who can tell me how to help myself see reality when i have myself so convinced to the point where i could swear on anything that it really happend? Please?

purplegirl1 · 10-21-2006, 08:06 PM

Love is Blind -

I do this!!!! This is my main obsession!!! If you read my other posts..I am slso on Long Island!!! How weird is that... I imagine this all of the time, I did this when I dated and now with my husband... I totally understand how you feel!!! It is like I know that I didn't kiss anyone but the thought feels soooo real that I think it happened and I believe it..

LoveIsBlindness · 10-22-2006, 01:32 AM

So what does 2 people such as ourselves to do cope with this?

LittleZanyone · 10-23-2006, 06:49 AM

And then there was three

I also suffer from the same thing. I make things up in my mind, second guese myself and things I have done, or who I am. I saw this news cast on this mother who killed her three kids, and even though I was very sad for them kids, I also was sad for her. As someone that suffers from OCD and Anxiety I see her and wonder. WHAT IF, what if that was me, could it be me? Could I do something like that. This whole OCD and such is all so new. Even though I know now I suffered my whole life from this, not till recently did I open up to it and take Wellbutrin. SO I see this on TV and all these Bad things then I scare myself. IF it happen to her, could it happen to me? I over analize it and chew on it for a long time. I know it isnt me, I tell myself it is just OCD but it doesnt stop them thoughts from happening. Bottom line is, Dought. Like I dont even know who I am at times.

Does that scare you as well?

LoveIsBlindness · 10-24-2006, 11:23 PM

You case sounds so much like mine...and YES i does scare me very much! Its very scary and upsetting and it can ruin your whole life at times...it sucks.. and i know deep down after awhile i never did anything wrong, but then somtimes Im not sure if i did even though i know darn well i did nothing wrong. I dont know if your religious or not, and if your not thats perfectly ok I dont mean to force anything upon you. but when it happends to me, I think, well I KNOW i NEVER did ANYTHING wrong and its just ocd, but no matter what the lord forgivess all of our sins, so in the end, even though you really did nothing wrong, your going to be alright anyway. Thats what gets me through