First I was convinced that I was going to die and I couldn't stop thinking about my health. Then I was scared that I was going to go insane. Then I started thinking I was going to turn into a psychotic killer. Then I was scared that I would start to hear voices in my head talking to me. During all of this, I strangely fell in love with this girl. Now- I'm scared that I'm going to turn homosexual. Does this sound like a shoe-in for OCD? Alot of people on this site have said it probably is, my psychologist said I have traits of it, and my friend with OCD said it sounds all too familiar.
Traits?? Unfortunately it sounds like the whole deal.
Only an obsessive compulsive could worry in succession like that about dying, going crazy, becoming schizophrenic, a killer, or a homosexual. These notions alone are very common symptoms, and to be honest, ones that I have experienced personally in my time with this disorder. In retrospect you laugh, but at the time it's terrifying.
I'd tend to agree with your OCD friend. How long has this been going on with you?
Traits?? Unfortunately it sounds like the whole deal.
Only an obsessive compulsive could worry in succession like that about dying, going crazy, becoming schizophrenic, a killer, or a homosexual. These notions alone are very common symptoms, and to be honest, ones that I have experienced personally in my time with this disorder. In retrospect you laugh, but at the time it's terrifying.
I'd tend to agree with your OCD friend. How long has this been going on with you?
Steve
Well, it has been seriously affecting me for about the past 3 months. I was convinced that I was going to die for about a month and half from early August to mid September. Then for a little while after that I just felt like anything could happen and kind of didn't care. Then a few weeks ago, I was sitting in school and started to think I'd go insane because I was thinking about God/the universe/creation, etc. and I couldn't stop thinking about it. THIS was the first time I was actually conscious that I was having weird thought processes. Then the next day a counselor said to me "Well everything you say here is confidential unless your planning on killing yourself or someone else"... So of course that train of "what-if?"'s came next. Then I was ready a story about a guy who heard voices in his head and thought that would happen. Then I was thinking about the girl I like and I saw a gay couple on TV and started to get scared that I could turn homosexual.
I agree with you- once its all over, I'm sure I'll crack up at all of this (I mean, I feel like I want to right now), but now- its just too scary.
Traits?? Unfortunately it sounds like the whole deal.
Only an obsessive compulsive could worry in succession like that about dying, going crazy, becoming schizophrenic, a killer, or a homosexual. These notions alone are very common symptoms, and to be honest, ones that I have experienced personally in my time with this disorder. In retrospect you laugh, but at the time it's terrifying.
I'd tend to agree with your OCD friend. How long has this been going on with you?
Steve
Well, it has been seriously affecting me for about the past 3 months. I was convinced that I was going to die for about a month and half from early August to mid September. Then for a little while after that I just felt like anything could happen and kind of didn't care. Then a few weeks ago, I was sitting in school and started to think I'd go insane because I was thinking about God/the universe/creation, etc. and I couldn't stop thinking about it. THIS was the first time I was actually conscious that I was having weird thought processes. Then the next day a counselor said to me "Well everything you say here is confidential unless your planning on killing yourself or someone else"... So of course that train of "what-if?"'s came next. Then I was ready a story about a guy who heard voices in his head and thought that would happen. Then I was thinking about the girl I like and I saw a gay couple on TV and started to get scared that I could turn homosexual.
I agree with you- once its all over, I'm sure I'll crack up at all of this (I mean, I feel like I want to right now), but now- its just too scary.
Yeah, thats typical of OCD patterns, and they are damn scary. I always had OCD tendencies right from a little kid, but they began to take on more sinister proportions at high school and later college, so I can understand how you feel.
For someone who seems to be suffering from OCD, that was not the best thing for that counselor to say to you. I think I would freak if my doctor or whoever said that to me. Sometimes, they do not realize they are doing more harm than good, and can be forgiven because not many are experienced with OCD. "What if" is the hallmark of the disorder. Just remember though, all these fears are the product of an anxiety disorder and have no basis in reality. Rest assured, you are not "turning" gay right now, even if it seems real (being gay in reality is a whole lot different, and no one ever "turns" into anything).
Has your psychologist diagnosed you OCD? Maybe it would be a good idea to discuss these various obsessions with him/her.
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