Re: OCD or just my depression making me obsessive?
I had some similar problems that I address this very site. I learned a lot. I have OCD, been diagnosed and have been seeing a psychiatrist and therapist. They were ignoring my needs and treating me wrong but that is another subject.
Look up OCD, pure "O", intrusive thoughts, and rumination. I looked these up but learned the most using the advanced search link here and looked through old messages on these subjects.