Fear of Dying - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

helly25 · 02-14-2007, 04:13 AM

Hi, Ive just joined this board. I read these posts and cried. Im in the same position. My things are cancer and a heart ttack. I feel like im dying. Im so scared that im going to die alone. I feel so alone. I cant share how i feel with my family anymore because they are sick of me talking about being sick so i spend all my time in my room feeling like im dying. Im trying to find somewhere to get a full body MRI because they show everything so then i will know if there is something wrong. Im a wreck. im not living anymore because of this. this is makeing me die.

helly25 · 02-14-2007, 04:36 AM

Please someone post a reply. dont just read....i need someone to help me!

Trixibel · 02-14-2007, 04:36 AM

Oh God, you poor thing. I have been through this. When I was twenty I started having panic attacks but didn't realise what they were and thought they were heart symptoms and went for all sorts of tests. Since then (I'm 38 now) I've had various crisis times where I was worried about my health but it comes and goes. I do know what it's like though and it's horrible. Especially the thought that you'll die alone.

Do you have any symptoms that point to you having cancer or heart attacks? Like, have your parents had those problems? My father had heart problems so I guess I thought I was destined for it too - it was only a matter of time. I also know what it's like when your family gets tired of hearing about it - when they start rolling their eyes when you open your mouth. My husband's heard about my chest pains so often that it's like the boy who cried wolf - if it was the real thing he probably wouldn't believe me !!

It's true though - fear of this sort makes takes up all your time and energy. It robs you of really living. You need to talk to someone about it. When I had all my tests when I was 20 the doctor referred me to a psychologist and I didn't go - I was outraged that he'd suggest such a thing - but now I wish I'd gone - it might have made me realise what my problem was a lot earlier. My symptoms were caused by anxiety and bad diet.

helly25 · 02-14-2007, 04:40 AM

my psychiatrist said not to turn little phsical symptoms into me having cnacer. but im always sick. i have bad stomach pains and chest pains and this sensation of squeezing in my throat. Ive had heads of tests dont. like xrays and ultrasounds. i had one on my tummy yesterday and it found that i have an extra spleen and a benign mass in my kidney. im in pain all the time. im only 25

maddeepie · 02-15-2007, 02:24 PM

Im exactly like you!! im only 21. I have a HUGE fear of death. I also am terrifed that im going to get or have cancer, heart attack and AIDS. Ive been like this since i was 13. Im getting a little better now, but if i stress out the thoughts will come back. sometimes i sit and think about how everybody can seem so happy living life knowing there going to die. WHat i do to stop thinking about these things are: getting myself healthy...like stopping smoking, exersing, taking vitamins. And talking to people. We just have to realize that we ALL die, and when it happens we wont know anyways. Lets just hope theres a fun place to go after this. i hope i helped a little!