Hi there i'm new here and i have this issue

ocd of course
I'm 22 my name is Chantal and i need help.
I been on Paxil for a year now and gained weight and feeling not so balanced sumtimes..
Wel i have a bf that my parents before didn't like cuz he suffered from epilepsia wich is now cured he's 27 btw, but now my parents do accept him and he comes home and stuff.
Now cuz he is a quiet boy my mum thinks he is weird

or is strange i know he isn't he's the sweetest most caring man but lately i feel bad,,..
now last nite we went out just to go around the block to take a spin .
I took my 20mg paxil and we went out,
But since he was at home moments before he was acting weird he was nervous but didn't want to tell me , since i have ocd i noticed that he was nervous or something ,,...
Well he was kissing me and being tooo nice like hugging me and stuff not reacting good and since i told him he was strange i got him more nervous u , he just later on admitted he was and stopped acting weird . Now that night i began crying and sobbing crying hysteracly

the way he acted and stuff i think. Now i can't get over the fact that he is ok that he is not cookoo or sumthing i luuv him to death and now i can't stand him or think about him or look at him i dunno why i sitl feel like he is lost or crazy or something makes me sooooooooo sad and hearthbroken , i feel like i wanna trow up and stuff i get panics soo bad ,, please somebody help me
I don't wanna loose him he is gona propose this month and i feel this way , he knows he wants to help but i can't help it ..
Is this OCD or what??



Chantal