LOL! And a plan to cover changes in that plan. And one to cover that.
Oh yeah... and lists. Am I the only one who writes just about everything down? Go over the list and rewrite it?. Arranging items on the list several ways?
doing special things or having to do important things (study for exams, take exams, hold down a job, being intimate with a girlfriend or boyfriend) while having awful, annoying, irritating OCD thoughts to ruin the moment or make things harder to concentrate on.
*Not being in control of your thoughts!*
The lists, the feeling like I MUST make the list NOW then having to make ANOTHER list because I failed to plan what I actually wanted to put on the list to begin with and MISSED SOMETHING. Oddly enough I never USE the list...for anything.
The URGENT need to do something NOW! Well I'll be damned maybe I don't actually WANT to!
The anxiety that accompanies the urgent need to go along with the compulsion.
ohh man do i relate to the lists, right b4 i go to bed i have to make a list of what needs to be done for that next day and a reminder of that i need to think positive. Every night i do this like i feel like im gonna forget all of it if i dont right it down.
I feel you on the sets. mine always have to be even especially four. 2's and 4's. Hate it when I'm full cause I'll be like "I have to take four more bites." it's aggravating.
I feel you. I will be reading a magazine and before i know it the thoughts have taken over and I relaize I've read 20 pages and don't remember any of it.
I hate having to check things 400 times. I hate having to do stuff so many times like brush my hair, wash my hair, brush my teeth. i hate having to set my alarm clock a certain way so many times before I can go to sleep. Or having to take so many sips of a drink before I go to bed even when I'm not thirsty.
I hate having to eat the same restaurants over and over for lunch at work. If not then it drives me nuts and I constantly worry what is going to happen.
I hate cooking because I have to check the oven and stove like 5 million times afterwards to make sure I turned it off. Or if you put something in the wrong place from where you usually do do you worry about it all day long?
i hate when people don't answer when your supposed to call or dont call when they say they will because my obsessvive thoughts of worrying get to me of what happened even though they probably just didn't hear there phone. You want to get mad at them but it's really not there fault for your thoughts.
My thoughts and rituals get extremely worse when it comes time when I'm really nervous or excited about something. like if i mess up just one little thing it will all fall apart. Like weather will ruin it. Or if someone says they feel they are getting sick you get even more into the ocd like if you mess up you caused them to get sick. and you cant stop no matter how hard you try and get so tense you feel like you aare seconds from a heart attack.
Ditto on intrusive thoughts interrupting my concentration and the fear that accompanies them. The fear and nameless guilt all the time, never being comfortable, never not anxious.
Having to put things away immediately (like being in a rush to change my clothes so I can be sure to put them away), and, especially, having to do the dishes almost before I am through eating.
I'm so grateful for this board, thank you all.
Ditto on intrusive thoughts interrupting my concentration and the fear that accompanies them. The fear and nameless guilt all the time, never being comfortable, never not anxious.
Having to put things away immediately (like being in a rush to change my clothes so I can be sure to put them away), and, especially, having to do the dishes almost before I am through eating.
I'm so grateful for this board, thank you all.
I TOTALLY agree about the constant anxiety, fear, and guilt...this has to be the worst part for me. It is so mentally, emotionally, and physically exhausting.
The worst thing for me is that when the ocd subsides, I see how much richer my life could be in past and future. I see all the things I avoided and shut myself off from because of it, and I know that this will happen in the future, too. I know that if I had a child, he or she would bear the brunt of my ocd, and that is more than I can bear, so I know deep down I won't ever let myself have a child. Mostly I don't think about it, but really this makes me deeply sad. I always just assumed when I was young that I would have kids, and I thought I'd have a lot to offer as a mom. Now I think I'd offer more pain than joy, and that leaves a huge hole in my heart. ocd has stunted my life.
do I feel like I fit in here 
