Weird intrusive thoughts. - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

staralfur · 05-13-2007, 10:30 AM

Has anybody else experienced this?

My intrusive thoughts occur as opposite, reactionary thoughts to each of my own.

I'd tell myself "This is a good dvd" and I'd hear "No it's not" as part of my internal dialogue.

Or "I like cheese" and I'd hear "No you don't", and it's like that with everything.

Since when I first had it I had no idea what intrusive thoughts were, I got really afraid of it being schizophrenic, and sometimes now my mind will give the thoughts voices, like hearing a song in your head, or singing it in your head, just to mess with me.

I don't seem to have conventional pure O or intrusive thoughts about sex, violence etc.... so it just keeps me questioning what my condition really is, and keeps the fear of it being schizophrenia alive.

What do you guys think?

Robin2007 · 05-13-2007, 12:32 PM

I do that a lot also. It isn't every little thing like liking cheese but it is a lot to do with my obsessions. I pretty much fight myself over many issues and it is just me fighting with my OCD only in order to understand better my head gives it a voice. So my ocd will make me think the door is unlocked and I will say back that it isnt I just checked and it will tell me I didn't and I just argue with myself over whether I locked the door or not. Do yours have anything that you can see right away that match with your obsessions or is it just everything and you can't see a connection? If your phobia of schizophrenia is really strong it is probably just your brain bringing that obsession out using a voice you have made yourself just like my obsession with the door.

seaturtle · 05-13-2007, 07:17 PM

Yes, I have a constant battle in my head going on. It's as if something is always questioning the validity of whatever I am thinking or doing, accusing me of not being sincere when I am, always telling me I'm no good and am just pretending to be a good person when I am a rotten one. Things like that.

staralfur · 05-14-2007, 04:20 AM

A good tip I find is to remember that if the thought is intrusive (which is usually completely obvious) then you know the opposite is actually true. Use the intrusive thought as a validator.

I.e...

"I love my girlfriend"
"No you don't"
"I know that thought is intrusive, ergo the opposite is true or it would be a welcomed thought, therefore I can conclude that I do indeed love my girlfriend."

It doesn't work all the time though.

I find I have to switch between an array of exercises from time to time, as the effect of one fades with too much application.

divalou · 05-14-2007, 09:01 AM

hey! i was just about to post about this. i get this thing that i think"im not enjoying this2 when im out with my bf, or (as he's a dj) i'll tell him i loved his set and my head will tell me i never, or im lying. this happens with other things like if im with him and having fun something will say "your not really enjoying this you just faking being happy" is this similar to you?