Molestation Obsession - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

purplegirl1 · 05-14-2007, 08:40 PM

I Was With My 4 Year Old Nephew This Weekend. He Put A Sticker On One Of My Breasts (i Was Wearing My Clothes) He Was Being Silly Saying I Put That On Your Boob. So I Put It On My Other One And He And I Were Laughing... Then I Said Put Them On Yours... And We Were Laughing And Having Fun And Then All Of A Sudden, I Got The Thought That, Doing That Was Molesting Him...i Know That I Didn't And He Is 4 And We Were Being Silly....and I Am Very Silly... But I Kept Thinking That It Was Wrong And Horrible And Disgusting....meanwhile He Was Hysterically Laughing And Acting Silly.... Any Thoughts??

seriousperson · 05-15-2007, 07:54 PM

Perhaps on some level your mind lept to possible outcomes of such silly behavior that would result in molestation. But from what you've written, it was all just sillyness.

Still, perhaps if he does something like that again you might use the opportunity to explain to him that boobs are off limits for touching. But then again, maybe you should ask his mom before going there with those ideas in case she thinks that would make him uptight.

purplegirl1 · 05-15-2007, 08:03 PM

Thanks For The Response. I Know. I Was Telling One Of My Friends Today About It, She Knows Me For Years And Knows All About My Ocd. She Said That It Was Probably Good For Him The Way I Reacted B/c I Didn't Make A Huge Deal And That May Have Helped To Not Make It Such A Big Deal As If , "don't Do That" Etc... That By Making It Silly, It Actually May Have Helped To Make It "just A Body Part".... But Of Course B/c Of My Ocd I Think It Was Molesting... My Friend Laughed And Said, No Way!!!! I Know It Isn't And Love My Nephew As If He Is My Own Child And I Would Never Ever Ever Want To Hurt Him In Any Way.. I Think That Is My Fear That Somehow I May Have Hurt Him... That Is My Fear That I Will Make Someone Feel Sad Or Bad Or Hurt Someone, Especially A Child... B/c I Love Children!!!

divalou · 05-16-2007, 01:00 PM

hey there purplegirl;
i have similar fears/obsessions. for some reason when i was younger i started having panic attacks thinking i was a peadophile. i know im not and ive never done or thought about anything like that and never would but for som reason my brain made me worry that i was a peadophile!! i seemed to get over this until recently its came back, now i worry if theres kids around me incase they touch me, im really carefull if i pick my nephew up just incase, like in yourcase, he touches me somewhere by accident. i suppose ive developed a bot of a fear of kids! sounds stupid i knw but im worried i'll neve be able to change a nappy, babysit or even have kids! im hoping just ignoring the thoughts and "acting" liek everythings fine will make it go away.
but please belive me we're both in the same boat and neither of us would do anything our ocd tells us we will
lou

purplegirl1 · 05-16-2007, 05:29 PM

Thanks for the advice, I know you are right.. it is sooo hard...