miyu

Yeah, that’s true, sometimes they are replaced by new obsessions and sometime you run the clear for a very long time. I really like the way you beat you OCD. Without medication. I wish more people would do that. We don’t know what is in the medication, and we don’t really know what the long term affects are. I mean the tests show that the “majority” of people are fine. But what about the others? There is no proof. I know you’re feeling of finally understanding the things you did. My first OCD started when I was 4 I thought I would get locked in my room when I closed the door. So everyday i would spend like a half an hour, just opening and closing the door, thinking once I closed it, this time it would not open.. Then open it and it was fine, but closing it again, thinking this time it will not open. I knew nothing lasted forever and one day it would break, I was just thinking it would be today. so I opended and closed, and opened and closed.

When I worked at subway I had a lady make me change my gloves because I touched someone’s meat, and then touched her bread. I did as she asked, but it really bugged me, I wanted to tell her if she didn’t like meat that much not to come in here because the whole place is contaminated by meat. Before she was hear the meat has touched nearly everything, we mostly carry meat, so when we prepare it, it may touched the veggies or the microwave, or the oven, or the pan, even if we clean as best as we can it is never fully gone, and seeps through the paper, and the juices of the sandwich meat splatters everywhere. That is what I was thinking, but I never said anything I just change my gloves and made her veggie burger with meat traces no one can control. It’s like washing your hands when you think you can control germs, when you can’t they are the one thing no human can control no matter how clean we are.