intrusive thoughts.. - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

mochi* · 05-31-2007, 10:44 PM

Hi all,
I am just having a really hard time, and just didn;t know where else to go...
My OCD had been terrible lately, and today was especially bad.
My thoughts seem out of control and I can;t stop the "pure O" or incessent worring and obsessing about my yucky thoughts...
Sometimes I wonder if this is normal for OCD or not--
I mean, do any of you have a severly hard time letting go of a thought, or thoughts, so much so that you just want to cry and crawl into bed???
I feel exhausted from thinking these thoughts all the time, and I just want to cry...
I try so hard not to focus on them, and recognize that they are just OCD, but some days I can;t avoid them, and having them crowd my brain makes me unable to focus, and the nature of them makes me terribly anxoius and depressed.
I feel alone, and sometimes I feel like I can;t kick this thing...
Just i need of some reassurance.
Any suggestions for treating "pure O?"

ChanceFL · 05-31-2007, 10:58 PM

I don't have any suggestions, but I just wanted to tell you that I'm right there with you. My obsessions lately are so awful, and they are making me so depressed that I feel really hopeless. Tomorrow I am going to see another psychiatrist and I'm going to try any medication he suggests because anything is better than this. I also ordered a book called "Freedom From Obsessive Compulsive Disorder" by Jonathon Grayson and it has some really good techniques from what I have read so far. And yes, lately all I have been doing is crying hysterically and laying in bed, so I know how you feel.

lithenblithe · 05-31-2007, 11:52 PM

There are definitely those times when it just seems so overwhelming and where nothing seems to help. It gets so hard to do the simplest things, and there doesn't seem to be a light at the end of the tunnel. I wish I had better suggestions about how to get out of that, but I do know that those times do always pass, sometimes just when it seems it can't possibly get any worse. I find that sometimes when I am most down, I will have maybe a small moment of clarity or a little peace, and I try to just remember that, and to remember and believe in the times when I have been happy and when the ocd has been more distant. Since I've gotten past my last bout recently, I've written myself some letters of what it's like to be happy, to remind myself when I start to get down or hopeless again.

I know how hard it is; know you're *not* alone and this too shall pass. Try to be patient and understanding with yourself during this tough time. Think of how you might care for a child who was feeling really scared or sad, and care for yourself in that way. If you get angry with yourself for getting caught up in the thoughts, it will only make them worse.

I hope things get better for you soon!

WorldInMotion · 06-01-2007, 03:32 AM

hey,
I too have had a difficult time in the past 2 days..Everything seemed fine more or less, met a great girl who i;ve been seeing, taking a good course for the summer, my buddies living with me..it seems great..but serious ocd flare up the other day put me in an anxious, bitter mood..so annoying..I should know by now these times come and go..and within a little while it will be just another annoying memory..youre fine..take care..i feel what helps when your feelign at your worst..just let it happen..say to yourself "yup, feelin like crap right now,.,.bring the thoughts on..whatever, Screw em!"..best done if alone, haha. be good

Nick

Christian73 · 06-01-2007, 06:18 AM

I'm just coming out of a rough couple of weeks, so I really feel for you. I have learned that finding a way to relax, either through deep breathing or meds, in order to get rid of the anxious, emotional response to the thougths, seems to help them go away. I also find that talking to my nearest and dearest about what I'm "thinking" is really helpful because they help me see how ridiculous the thoughts are.