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Hello everyone,

This is my first post on the forum and I have come because I'm in need of some reassurance. The problem started off really small, but over time, it has gotten worse because I have never discussed it with anyone. It seemed too trivial at the time and was worried about what people would think of me so I kept it bottled up and hoped it would go away. However, after nearly a year of constant anxiety and recurring thoughts, I have decided to speak openly about it here in hope to clear up my worries so I can move on with my life. To be honest, if someone here could give me the answer I'm seeking, it would mean more to me than winning the lottery! I can't tackle the OCD until I have reassurance in my mind. Sorry to ramble on. I will now tell you what my problem is. As you can imagine, It's quite hard for me to talk about it as it sounds really stupid and embarrassing, but I don't have much of a choice lol. It's a problem to me and needs to be discussed. Here goes:

One day, brother is shaving (If I remember rightly lol). I get out of the bath to dry myself with the towel. Then, I usually go into the toilet and use a bit of tissue to dry my a*s*s (yea I hate not feeling totally dry lol) and blow my nose. oh and in between toes too lol. I don't know why I don't just still use my towel but oh well. Turns out beforehand, my bro had given himself a nasty cut with the razor and used the tissue paper (so he used it first, then I used it later) to blot up the stream of blood lol and unaware at the time, I picked it up and used it for me! When I realised I'd used that tissue, it didn't really bother me, but now it does and been troubling me for nearly a year. I just keep getting these thoughts that something really bad is going to happen to me and that I've got some terrible disease or going to die because of it! Surely it wouldn't be harmful though. It's got to the stage I daren't even look on a w*i*k*i*pedia site incase I read something bad. I know it all sounds weird, but I really need someone to tell me I'm being silly and not to worry at all so I can put my mind at rest. I just need an answer as simple as that and I would be so grateful. I only need a short reply.

What's more, to make it sound even more silly, this was over 7 years ago!!! With this in mind, surely there must be nothing to worry about, but my mind works overtime.

It sounds trivial, but remember, in my mind, it's a big worry to me,

Thankyou.