purplegirl1

too have OCD - I am 30 years old, Married for a little over 3 years to the most wonderful guy. Let me tell you, I was diagnosed with OCD in college (I went upstate to Oneonta, NY). I was about 19 or 20 when diagnosed. I had a boyfriend at the time who lived in Maryland and he didn't go to school with me.. long distance relationship, met thru friends. Anyway, I started to have doubts, obsessions if I really loved him, and if I did, how do I know...what if I don't, etc.. we were dating about 8 months at the time. I would soon then obsess that I "cheated" on him...always just obsessing if I kissed someone else, never anything more than that, it was a weird obsessiong.. it was such a spiral and became such an obsession that I just had a hard time in the relationship.. we were together 3 years, broke up for other reasons, i was 22 i think (he treated me like crap and fed off of my OCD), then I was single (and obsessed that I would NEVER get married, oh my god was that an obsession, lol etc...) I was single for like 1 1/2 years in between before I met my husband. If i hooked up with a guy or dated a guy I would start to obsess - what if they dont' call me, what if they don't like me, what if I have HIV/AIDS or if they do... my god, the list goes on and on and on..- I was 24 when I met my husband, (in a bar no less) lol... we dated, had fun, but....I would obsess "what if kissed someone else" the stupid same old cheating obsession carried from the boyfriend in college, to the guys I dated, to then him.....to then my husband - boyfriend at the time. That stupid obsession was with me FOREVER, tranferred onto to everyone!!!!!!

We got married, still obsessed on the cheating thing... and did for most of our marriage so far, until recently - last year it ended, with lots and lots of therapy and my meds...let me tell you, unfortunately OCD is a part of your life, and You have to learn how to handle it or deal with it I guess...It took me finding a great therapist, staying on Luvox and my wonderful supportive husband. He went to my therapist with me to learn how i think and the correct way to respond to me, as not to make things worse.

do you go for therapy? on meds?
Let me tell u this - OCD will find its way back if you let it, I obsess over Money, having kids, a house... etc... but I have learned how to try to stop the obsessions... it is very very very hard!!!! I hear you and you are NOT alone!