disturbing thoughts - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

charliegirl28 · 09-10-2007, 04:43 PM

hi, newbie here, im looking for general advice really, been having issues with disturbing thoughts now for a while, i cant even remember when they started, i just know they've always been there,

these thoughts just pop into my head, and they are really terrible, things like violence towards people, harming animals, and dare i say inappropriate behaviour towards kids, now, i know i would NEVER EVER act on these thoughts, but they really bother me, it makes me feel like im a terrrible sick individual,

i dont think i have a mental health problem, i seem a pretty well rounded together person most of the time, just every now and again, i get the thoughts, you know how if you had a hot drink, you move it away from children, careful not to scold them, i do that too, but in my head, im thinking "what would happen if i poured boiling hot water on that child" i would never do that, but its the thoughts,i could list them all, but im worried you would think im some kind of *****......

any advice please?

p.s i havent been to a doctor about this, im not on meds or anything like that, no diagnosis or anything

MuchLikeFalling · 09-10-2007, 09:23 PM

Omg I've had the same thing as u describe my whole life long. I'm a teenager and it sometimes really bother me and scares me. Mine started when I was really small, from what I remember 3 or 4.

So you're not alone, I've always thought I was the only one with it and never asked anyone what it was. I hope someone can clear this up.

Bordism · 09-11-2007, 10:54 AM

Your not alone, I get them all the time. Sometimes i can brush them off, other times they really hit me and scare me, make me feel sick and nervous. I made a post a week or so ago, have a look for it! You sound pretty much like me and everyone else who gets them!

teacher2be · 09-24-2007, 05:40 PM

oh my gosh the hot water thing i do. i think because i fear "what if something happened to my kids bad" so much and things like this go in my head. i believe becasue my fear is so high that provokes the thoughts. i could never do anything like that either so why is it in my head like that? it is frustrating.

charliegirl28 · 09-25-2007, 01:15 PM

thanks for the responses so far, its good to know im not alone

trouble is, i dont know why i have them, some of them are really bad, and make me feel sick to my stomach, its like, because i think these thoughts, that must be who i am, i hate it, does anyone know what causes these thoughts? or how to deal with them?? they really disturb me, and im too afraid to go to a doctor about it, incase they think im a sick weirdo......

i dont know what else to do