I have made a discovery - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

tnman · 12-22-2007, 08:00 PM

hey there everyone... I know I said I probably wouldn't post again on here... but I have some late breaking news in my situation... As some of you on here have read about my boo hooing over my OCD event... in regards to worrying about what an HIV prevention specialist was talking about after she gave me my NEGATIVE test results on test 2 the day after I had my other negative test...... she made or I thought she made some kind of remark about "that's why I was concerned"........... well... you know.......... on my way home that evening after I received my 2nd NEGATIVE HIV test that week... I heard all kinds of little voices telling me things... hmmmm did you really check the test result to make sure it was negative.. did the clinic tech see it right?... and so on.... well, guess what???? that is the same time that I thought about the statement that she possibly made.................... well............. at this time, I am not really sure if she ever even made the statement.............it could have been my OCD telling me about the silly remark....along with the other little voices in my head giving me DOUBTS.... anyway, this entire situation is getting really old and I really don't even remember that day well at all anymore..........If I was in a court of law, I could not swear at what exactly the lady clinic tech said.. and again, when I asked her about it the next week, she said she never said it, she said she was NEVER concerned then and not concerned now... SO, this entire little worry about what she said or thought, could have been my OCD LYING to me.. filling my head with doubts.. At any rate... Malibu, I am starting to believe that this is what really happened... and again, at any rate, it DOES not really matter... because why would someone say they were concerned with a NEGATIVE result 2 days in a row......... MY MIND SEIZED or somehow got the word "concerned" into it.. anyway.. any info would help.. Thanks! tnman

seaturtle · 12-22-2007, 09:26 PM

Are you being actively treated for your OCD? I am sorry you're still obsessed with this incident, but I think the issue is your OCD, not this incident. More reassurance about the HIV incident will not make much of a difference in how you perceive it until you address the OCD.

I'm sorry you're going through this experience, and I hope you get the help you need.

purplegirl1 · 12-23-2007, 12:06 AM

I agee with Seaturtle, I am also sorry that you ae going through this. Are you getting help for the OCD? I know that feeling where you obsess on something so much, it becomes a blur to you and you can't even remember all of the situation so clear anymore.

I too have obsessed about having HIV/AIDS in the past. Today, I was at a store and there was a guy who was very strange, looked like he was high and just strange. He kept talking to me and shook my hand after. I then had the thought that maybe he had HIV or a disease and I got it from shaking his hand. When I left the store, I only had Lysol wipes in my car, so I scrubbed my hands with that until I got home. I just kept saying to myself, I could not get HIV from shaking hands with him anyway if he had it...and that helped...but I have also been in cognitive behavioral therapy for so long so I have learned how to get rid of the obsessions....it is hard to do and alot of work....