ineedhelpasap21

Hi again, okay so its the week before my period which is im pretty sure the worst week (it was last month) but anyway, my guilt has gotten so much worse that last night i had the urge to tell my sister so bad that finally i got up and left the room. I was sitting there and my head was saying "Tell her! whats the worst that can happen?? you want to tell them." Then the logical part was telling me that i dont want to tell them, but my ocd was saying "What if its not your ocd, what if you just feel bad and want to tell them..youre a hypocrite who lies, youre a terrible person, where will you be in an hour if you tell them? or next week???you would probably be so relieved from this secret" then the temptation to see what they would do if i told them was SO STRONG! AH does that even make sense? because to my logical brain it makes no sense. I KNOW that i dont want to tell them, i want to keep it to myself. and i really dont see why i should have to tell them and put an unnecessary block between myself and them. I really took in all the advice you gave me and its really been helping then all of a sudden this week its like DOUBLE bad. my head is literally spinning.