Delores77

I haven't yet been to anyone about this...I just started thinking that my behavior may not be normal in the past 6 months or so...

My Children:
I'm overly concerned about their well-being. This is to the point that I don't even want them riding anywhere with my husband without me. If they do, I panic while they're gone and will call them often....of course, I know how to cover this up...I ask them to bring bread or something home from the store. :-\
I'm also scared that they'll catch something. For instance: Our inside only cat scratched my youngest daughter...less than two weeks later this cat died. The Vet said it was anemia and the cat wasn't tested for rabies. of course, the thought started...stewed a bit and is at the point that I'm scared to death that my daughter caught rabies from this cat. (this is what I'm going through right now..it just happened over the weekend and I can't call the vet or a Dr. until tomorrow morning. :-(

Toilets:
I can't use a toilet that I can't clean first. I must at least wipe it clean, repeatedly, before I, or my youngest daughter, can use it. I don't believe I have started counting anything yet...but..

Handwashing:
My hands are so dry they hurt...all the time. I have to wash my hands any time I think that they may have gotten dirty...whether they really did or not.


I can't pinpoint a time when all of these things started, I just know they have been gradually getting worse. I do remember as a teenager I would grind my teeth...there was a pattern to it, depending on what sentence I was stuck on at the time...if the sentence had 7 syllables, i would grind back and forth seven times...I outgrew this obsession for the most part. I do find myself doing it every once in a while now.

Along with all of the above, I have a horrible fear of heights. In our local hospital, there is a second floor overlook that scares me so bad, we just don't go that way...even if it would save us 10 minutes of walking. My kids know not to go near an edge at all because it sends me in to hysterics.

Oh yeah...also, I'm scared of my husbands driving. This isn't just a normal fear of someone else driving or of not being the one in control...this is almost the same panic that would set in if I were to see one of my children standing on the edge of a cliff!

Ok...does it all sound like ocd to you all? I think maybe, whatever it is, it's something I've been likely to develop or have been developing over my lifetime...but was triggered when a friends little boy died at the age of 6...I believe that's when everything got worse quickly....does it sound logical to anyone else?

Thanks!