Re: OCD and relationships/dating - what's a real concern and what's just ocd?
i am actually fighting over this thought as well. i am not officially diagnosed as an OCD patient but im sure i am going through most of the symptoms of having it. it's just that i haven't been able to visit a therapist yet about this.
i love my boyfriend and i hate it everytime i doubt my feelings for him. i am very sure it's the OCD bothering me, it's not the real thing. i am very happy to be with my boyfriend but i become sad at times, because OCD makes me feel guilty - you know feeling bad about yourself asking as to why you were able to come up with those kind of thoughts. i usually have the obsession of asking "are we really meant to be?" or "do i still love him?". im scared to have these thoughts in my head because i don't wanna be apart from him but why am i having these thoughts? it's like having a small voice in your head telling you that you have to doubt about it or giving you a picture in your head that you're hurting him but deep inside i know, that i would never want to do that! it's affecting my emotions. i am bothered about it. i just wanna be happy right now. i wanna be free from these thoughts. i have wasted too much time just thinking about it all day long. i want to enjoy what we are having right now, but how can i do that if i'm prisoned to this OCD problem.
and about the other symptoms of ocd, i guess i also have them. not really a neat freak ocd person. not the type who washes hands from time to time. but i do have a lots of habits that may really be too irrational.
i count a lot. starting from 1 to 9. i don't feel much for even numbers. i usually think of 9 and 7 as my number.
i can't write anything on my notebook, i'm scared i'll mistakenly write a single letter. if i did, i'll surely tear the paper, until i get it perfectly.
i usually follow a certain pattern printed on the tiles, vinyl and carpets whenever i walk.
i prefer sorting things out in a certain order, pattern accoring to color, sizes and shapes.
and one thing that really bothers me like i said: having unpleasant thoughts towards the people i love the most such as my parents, my siblings and my boyfriend. i didn't mean every unpleasant thing i think about them but i can't really help it.
i'm just so happy right now, knowing i am not the only person who experiences this kind of situation. i can feel that i am somehow normal.
we are actually fighting the same battles and i wish us good luck!