I think I may have OCD - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

widepathhelp · 12-22-2008, 10:54 AM

I feel like I may have OCD. I have always had tendencies to worry, particularly feel guilty and worried. Things like not stepping on cracks in the pavement, clicking my tounge, and worrying about things obsessivly like 'did I leave the oven on? did I lock the door?' when I know I can't reasonably go back and check.
For the last year I have obsessed over guilt because of something I did 2 years ago, and I post my desire for help and advice frequently on Yahoo Answers and constantly feel alone and like I need people around me
I have been to a counsiller once, and he helped me with some of my issues, but I feel like I need more therapy and perhaps the use of meds to help me get through this.
Can anyone here give me advice on their own OCD or their experience with it and overcoming it?

cuts84 · 12-24-2008, 04:32 PM

Hey man, this definately sounds like OCD to me. From reading your story, I can't really see that you did anything wrong, and there is certainly no reason to be feeling guilty about it 2 years down the road. Trust me, if this is the worse thing you have done with a girl, then you are in better shape than 99.99% of all guys your age out there. But there is really no reason for me to sit here and reassure you that you did nothing wrong...this issue here is the OCD and the fact that you can't get over it. You need to quit reliving the situation over in your head and trying to make amends with it...just accept that it happened and moved on. Even if you feel you did something wrong, there is nothing you can do about it now. You have to get yourself out of "brain lock" and move on. Just curious, you said that you didn't really think much of it right after it happened...how long after that was it that you started feeling guilty and were obsessing over it?

widepathhelp · 12-26-2008, 07:23 AM

It started about a year after it had happened. Afterwards I remember the sort of normal feelings anyone would have if they stupidly made out with someone they wouldn't of under any other terms, and because I was still a little against the idea of having any sort of 'promiscuous' activity, a little bad about that but I don't recall ever really thinking alot about it beyond a couple of days.
I remember the moment I remember really sinking into the OCD. I was watching Fawlty Towers and the character kept accidently getting into inappropriate situations with a woman which were completetly innocent, and his wife said that he 'could run around groping women if he wanted but at least not to lie about it' or something of that nature.. and the word grope stuck out at me and that's when it really started... i guess i hated the idea of 'groping' someone and it disturbed me, and stuck.

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Originally Posted by cuts84

Hey man, this definately sounds like OCD to me. From reading your story, I can't really see that you did anything wrong, and there is certainly no reason to be feeling guilty about it 2 years down the road. Trust me, if this is the worse thing you have done with a girl, then you are in better shape than 99.99% of all guys your age out there. But there is really no reason for me to sit here and reassure you that you did nothing wrong...this issue here is the OCD and the fact that you can't get over it. You need to quit reliving the situation over in your head and trying to make amends with it...just accept that it happened and moved on. Even if you feel you did something wrong, there is nothing you can do about it now. You have to get yourself out of "brain lock" and move on. Just curious, you said that you didn't really think much of it right after it happened...how long after that was it that you started feeling guilty and were obsessing over it?

Kathrin74 · 12-27-2008, 03:49 PM

Your feelings of guilt and unhappiness are in no real relation to what happened. Ok, it may have been wrong, BUT you were drunk, AND we are all human and make mistakes we later regret. We can later think things over and ask for forgiveness (we Catholics have confession

) and be at peace with ourselves again. We can learn from our experiences.

Making a mistake doesn't mean we have to be unhappy for years afterward!

Do you still know the woman? Have you talked to her again? Maybe she wouldn't even remember.

I know OCD thoughts can be very intrusive and come up with more and more reasons why you should worry. That is typical.

The form of OCD where a person feels excessive guilt is called scrupulosity. You could look that up too.

Kathrin

widepathhelp · 12-28-2008, 03:37 PM

Holy moly, Kathrin!! That description rings true like crazy!
Although its not totally in relation to religion, I can so relate to the definition of scrupulosity. I always 'repeat' what i did much like repeating confession, won't listen to 'rational' voices, etc..
Wow! Thanks alot, that will give me something to bring up and to the counciller for sure!

Also, no I have no way of finding out whom it was and no I have not seen her to my knowledge since.
I have had an easier time of life over the last week and I think I may be starting to shift- but I stil lworry alot about other stuff and have a hard time controlling strees and anxiety.