jbean08

The most I have been diagnosed with is depression and anxiety, but I know something more is wrong with me than simply that. Certain words bother me, like I'm afraid to think too much about a certain word because I'm afraid it will also start too annoy me. The words that bother me come and go (sometimes coming back again), but it is especially affecting me when I write as I like writing and want to do it as a career, plus it can also be a way for me to express myself, but then I can't stop thinking about these particular words (though it's usually one or two bothering me at one time) and I can't stop thinking about if I should use them or not. I feel so crazy just saying this and I feel there is no way I can tell anyone about this, but it can really affect me in my daily life. This problem I remember beginning around seventh grade, but I've also struggled with other problems I consider pretty abnormal that have started around fifth or sixth grade.
I don't know what this is.. I feel I do have OCD, and I'm even wondering if I have schizophrenia (though I don't hear or see things, and I'm not like the people who have schizophrenia that I've seen in documentaries).
It really makes my life miserable.. can anyone relate or tell me what is wrong with me??