Alright, I was at work and at times I get these nervous attacks where I think I’m on the verge of compulsively doing something bad, like touching or hitting someone.
This one moment, I saw someone walking my way and the thought of touching them came into my head. I started to become more and more nervous as I got closer to the person. I started to have thoughts like “do it, do it.”
I also felt my arm move slowly towards their way. I didn’t touch them, I don’t think but what freaks me out is that I think I was trying to fulfill that compulsion. I’ve had many of these before, but I felt very sick to my stomach and nervous this time.
Am I losing control or did I lose control just then and there? Did I try?
I feel the same way you do at times. I get these thoughts in my head that make me want to touch someone or think very inapproropriate thoughts about someone. I have had bad thoughts about people and kids and I'd never want to do anything to every hurt anyone. I know that is not me and I would never do anything like that so why do I have these thoughts. Its like my mind is telling me just do it and I have to tell myself no I will not. These thoughts won't ever happen will they or are they just OCD thoughts? I am scared!
Is this OCD?
They are just thoughts. They are horrible, scary, thoughts. And I still even get nervous that I won't have "control" and act on them. But I've learned after a lot of research- that they are just thoughts- and nothing more. We can't control them, but we also can't let them control us :c). You won't act on your thoughts. People with OCD don't act on them, instead, we the thoughts give us anxiet, panic, etc. People with OCD also tend to have hyper-guilty consciences. So we feel even more guilty and panic ridden about our thoughts.
Alright, I was at work and at times I get these nervous attacks where I think I’m on the verge of compulsively doing something bad, like touching or hitting someone.
This one moment, I saw someone walking my way and the thought of touching them came into my head. I started to become more and more nervous as I got closer to the person. I started to have thoughts like “do it, do it.”
I also felt my arm move slowly towards their way. I didn’t touch them, I don’t think but what freaks me out is that I think I was trying to fulfill that compulsion. I’ve had many of these before, but I felt very sick to my stomach and nervous this time.
Am I losing control or did I lose control just then and there? Did I try?
Can someone help?
the illusion that you are losing control is created by the disorder. i have an "oh no, i'm descending into madness" thought at least once a month, and it's BS.
