Can't stop talking about this one Celeb that I find hot. - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

Cheerfulchick · 08-24-2009, 09:24 PM

Hi, please don't judge me, I am really reaching out for help. See there is this actor (younger than I, I am in my 30's) who I think is very hot and I can not stop talking about him. I feel that it is driving my best friend (right now my only true friend) crazy because I bring him up all the time. Let me give you some examples. Like if we are going shopping and I see a lunch bag with characters from the movie that he was in, I blush and talk about it. If I hear a song that was in one of his movies I talk about it and blush. See my life has been utter hell this past year and he is the only thing that really makes me truly happy. I have lost many jobs because of my ADD, my family has turned their back on me cause I am Christian, I have been homeless a few times this year because of money problems, I am single woman(never married and I do not want to get married) I have no kids, I do not date (I don't want to) and I have had a hard time finding the right job for me in this hard economy. I feel that I am pushing my best friend away with my obession over this guy. See she (my best friend) used to think he was good looking until she read some bad things about him. I argue with her when she points out the bad things about this actor. I just can not see the bad in him, I will go on and on for hours trying to convience her otherwise. She has told me so many times how stressed that she is with me going on and on and trying to make her like him again. I told her that I feel like I am losing everything. I have even tried to hide the colleage (notebook with his photos in it) so that I do not have to look @ his photos in hopes that I will not think about him and that does not work. When she does not talk about this actor I keep on bothering her to talk about this actor. She tries to change the subject but honestly I still bother her about this actor. She has begged me to stop talking about him, but I just can not stop my obsession over this guy. I have never done that to anyone before in my life, why now?
People what should I do about this? I can not afford meds nor can I afford a doctor right now, I would love to hear any advice that you have about this issue. I was told by a neighbor that this sounds like OCD that is why I am posting this here, I never really had OCD before.
Thanks.

Coolbeans · 09-10-2009, 09:20 PM

Meds are $4 at walmart i believe with prescription.. This just might be a sign of OCD. Look up info about OCD and see if any of it relates to you. Just think about him in your head. Why do you want her to like him anyway? Don't bother your friend about him. Learn self-control. If you get bothered, just deal with it inside. OH, and the reason you obsess with him is because you need him, in fact you are "using" him. He is something you use to help you run away from your problems. It is normal OCD behaviour. Heck, you may not even be in love with him. You just use him to escape from your problems. It gives your brain something to fall back on. He is like your getaway. That is why you are obsessed with him. Your mind sees this guy as like a leverage to help you stand and make everything better. Suggestions: find something else that can make you equally happy, and even more.