Compulsive Scalp Picking Disorder
I'm 14 years old and I think I have a compulsive scalp picking disorder. It all started with just a little scab on my head, about three year ago. I couldn't stand the little imperfection so I used my finger nails to pick it off. Then I noticed all the other little perfections on my head and all the little chunks and flakes of dandruff. Now I have several scabs and sore spots on my head and I can't stop picking! I canít stop myself even when it bleeds! I think that the habit is disgusting! The worse times I pick are when I'm stressed and under pressure, when I'm doing homework, and especially when I am in front of the bathroom mirror. I can sit on the bathroom counter staring into the mirror so I can tilt my head down so I can see what to pick, digging my nails into my scalp until someone starts knocking on the door and questioning me! I hate it, and all the little white lies needed to cover it up, and I want to stop but I feel like I can't! I would like to tell someone but I am too scared. I noticed my mom picking at her head so I kind of told her about what Iím going through and she tries to help or support me but she tells me to quit cold turkey which is impossible for me. I try to stop, I really do, but then I just crack. I try not to let anyone know because I think they would think I was really gross and weird. I used to go to a therapist for anxiety but she moved and I donít want to see someone else. I also take a pill called Fluoxetine, also called Prozac but it is just for anxiety. To my friends, I am a regular teen age girl! I want to stop this disgusting habit so bad! Iím afraid Iím going to get bald spots or go crazy (when I wash my hair or brush it, a lot of hair falls out but I also have thick long hair so Iím not sure if my habit has anything to do with it) Please help me! Thanks!