So here is whats been going on.
I have been having fast paced racing thoughts, more like flashing images accompanied by small sections of songs I REALLY hate that repeat themselves over and over again from my job that playes the same crappy music day after day all year long, i also constantly think about the past and what I would do differently, and i think about the future and how bleak it looks without any reason for it, my mood can change very quickly with little to no provocation, as an example i think about how much I love my wife, then I suddenly feel great animosity towards her and cant help but think how much she pisses me off when she has done nothing to deserve it. I cant focus on a straight line of thought, I get about 3 words into it and forget where I was going with it. I am losing my ability to spell words and used to pride myself on my vocabulary but am also losing that too. i dont do drugs and when I do drink its maybe 2 beers and far between, I am taking no meds and have had no traumatic events in my overall decent life. Please help! I dont want to go crazy!
So here is whats been going on.
I have been having fast paced racing thoughts, more like flashing images accompanied by small sections of songs I REALLY hate that repeat themselves over and over again from my job that playes the same crappy music day after day all year long, i also constantly think about the past and what I would do differently, and i think about the future and how bleak it looks without any reason for it, my mood can change very quickly with little to no provocation, as an example i think about how much I love my wife, then I suddenly feel great animosity towards her and cant help but think how much she pisses me off when she has done nothing to deserve it. I cant focus on a straight line of thought, I get about 3 words into it and forget where I was going with it. I am losing my ability to spell words and used to pride myself on my vocabulary but am also losing that too. i dont do drugs and when I do drink its maybe 2 beers and far between, I am taking no meds and have had no traumatic events in my overall decent life. Please help! I dont want to go crazy!
Have you seen a doctor to get a diagnosis and help? It sounds like thats sometihing you should do right away.