I can't stop thinking
I've had OCD since I was about 10 or 11 and I'm 19 now. I used to wash my hands so many times a day but I've kind of gotten over that.
I still have the intrusive thoughts though. I always think that I'm going to be possessed by the devil and now, more recently, I can't stop thinking that I'm going to be alone forever (I have always thought this but not as much). It's gotten to the point where I feel like killing myself. I just can't stop thinking about how alone I am. I can't watch any film/tv show that shows a couple happily in love because it just really upsets me.
I've also noticed that I'm starting to have violent thoughts. Like, if we're in the car and I see a person on the street, I'll just imagine what it'll be like to run them over. I would never harm anyone or anything so this has started to get to me.
Also, while I used to suffer from derealisation every day, it eventually went away, and now it's back. I'm just so fed up!
Has anyone gone through anything like this? What are your experiences?
Last edited by jm987; 07-20-2010 at 08:18 AM.