little_turtle

hi i am 17 and new here but i wanted to tell you that i also suffer from this whole creating-a-scenario thing. i always worry im going to die too, or that someone very close to me is going to die. a year and a half ago i thought "somebody i know is going to die soon. they're going to die in a car crash." well one of my best friends ended up dying 2 weeks later, but it wasn't in a car, it was a morphine/heroin overdose. that was when the scenarios really started kicking in. i always think when im riding in a car "what if that car right there just decides to ram us right when we get to it" and i just sit there and anticipate my death, and it sends me into panic attacks. or i think "what if my boyfriend just got killed while driving home just now" and i get so frantic i have a panic attack. my scenarios usually give me panic attacks and sometimes i get really sad and won't talk to anyone for weeks. does anyone elses cause attacks? i've never a doctor for it. i told my mom about it and she said i should see a doctor, but she doesn't want me on meds.. she thinks it will make me worse. i fear flying and tornadoes too, i've never flown before but i always have dreams of planes crashing and colliding in the air ever since i was REALLY little, around 5 years old. i get really freaked out about tornadoes too when it starts raining outside. welp i just thought i would let you know you aren't the only one!