H e double L of a thing! - Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) Message Board

ZZTexas · 02-09-2003, 12:12 AM

Anybody ever have a problam analizing words. Like when some one is talkin like on tv you are listening to the words rather than the full sentances. I mean like asking yourself what does this word mean and that word mean, hell you think you cant understand them but understand the whole confersation. Really werid. I myself am over panic dont have a problam with it at all no more after 20 years the scare is just not there no more guess I finaly said enought is enoguht but I was sitting watching the news one day and started to listening to words rather than sentances and got to thinking how do we understand what is being said, I know stupid but has anybody done this before, if so please let me know so i can blow this thing off cause i know it is just another symptom of anixenty but damn. I know soon as i quit thinking about it iam fine like when the phone rings and i get into a good confersation or some body comes to the door and i get intrested or i just go somwere it all ends but when thinking about it listening to the tv will damn near drive you nuts hahaha thanks yall.........

One other thing I would like to share with you good folks is this.

You know when we suffer from the Big A. our minds are going 90 mph and we are allways thinking about it, listenin to our hearts, thinking bad things Iam gonna die, or O what a head acke i got a brain tumor or my chest has got a pain in it OOOOOOO hell iam haveing a heart attack and boom the Panic sets in and here we go.

Well since I have become unafraid of it. It really seems werid some times cause i will be sitting down and my mind is blank ahahhaha I mean Iam so use to it being filled with the Big A thoughts because that is all i thought about for years but now iam just sitting with a blank mind and it is not running 90 mph no more that it feels plum damn weird h ahahahah lolololololol. I tell you it was the stangest thing once I started to really recover from this stuff. Hex my mind was just resting and I didnt know how to take it cause it had been so long since i havent thought about the big A for 24/7.

Anyway this feelin is so new and I have forgotten what it feels like it damn near throws me in to a panic attack hahhahh boy i tell ya.

Anyway now that all the physcal symptoms mean noting to me no more and iam over all of that and here comes this thought ahahah no my heart dont race becaue iam not scared of it or no I dont panic becaue I know its got to be the Big A tryin to find another way in.

Hell I had it a min ago watching tv and still some what have it now typeing this message so if i couldnt understand words i sure as hell could not write this post iam writing you think hahahahaahh but that how this stuff works and i know that so I dont panic no more just go do something till its off my mind but anyway was just wonderin on here if any of yall had this analizing problam with words thankyall...

Struggling23 · 02-09-2003, 01:20 AM

I know exactly what you mean. I don't know if it's related to my OCD or not, but a lot of times I'll start thinking about a word and it sounds weird to me, then I start thinking why does that word make sense? How do I know what it means? You wouldn't understand what I mean unless you do the same thing. I also used to do something similar to that. I remember being in Jr. High and telling a friend. "Isn't it weird that you are you and I'm me?" LOL She didn't know what I was talking about. It's like I would be wondering what it is like outside of my head, and I wondered what it was like in other people's heads. Deep stuff lol. Sometimes I also think how it's weird that when you die the world goes on. Freaky huh? Someone dies every second but it doesn't affect us unless we know them, but they aren't on earth anymore. I don't even know how to describe that lol, it's just something I think about sometimes.

ZZTexas · 02-09-2003, 05:37 AM

Yup, thats not werid at all I have done all that stuff over a 20 year period. Wonder how we talk, wonder how we are here, wondered were we come from, wondered how you are you and Iam me, not werid at all been there done that and so has most that has had this stuff. Hell I would drive across a bridge and think that I was gonna suddenly jerk the wheel to the left or right and go off of it, at one time I had to lock up all my guns hell thought I would sleep walk and go get them and liable to shoot ever body around me hahaahhahah no thats not werid at all I knows lots of people that has suffered from this stuff and they all do the same thing.

Iam really fine now finaly after a 20 year bout with this stuff dont any of it scare me no more and tonight I just got my anwser to the question I posted above after a year and five month search a lady told me excatly what it was I was so shocked it was unreal it was like she read my mind and when she anwsered my question it was like she knew excatly what had happend to me and she hit the nail on the head it was such a release becasue I feel like finaly now after 20 years Iam free of this stuff, such a simple anwser and I knew it had to do with just what she said but when she explained it and broke it down it was unbelivable to me I will post the anwser to my year and a half search here later on got to run for now but such a simple anwser but yet I knew it but I didnt I had figered it had somethign to do with that and I was right just didnt knwo what til tonight i see you later and no thats not strange at all many many many have your same thought i know i have at onetime or another......