baseballfan

Hello all.

My story, in a nutshell, would be this- I got depressed months ago and decided to start seeing a counselor about my issues. Since then, i've been rather introverted and analyzing different parts of my personality.

I'm on 100 mg of wellbutrin (for mild depression) and hve seen my pscyh a few times. She has said a few times that i definitely have some OCD charactersitics, maybe not enough to get a diagnosis, but, never the less, knowing that my little foibles are not too strange is a great relief.

Let me list a few and, perhaps, if you're reading this and identify with one of them, let me know...

1) randomly thinking about "doing or daying exact opposite" of what would be expected in a given situation. Say, calling someone a very bad name- i.e. see an overweight lady, and imagine calling them fat, in a loud voice, in front of everyone.

2)counting stairs, or repeating words for no good reason. (i sometimes repeat words to the beat of my walk)

3)I have a strong, somewaht rigid regimen with jogging every day and cleaning, but they're not severe enough to cause alarm.

4) i twist my hair, have since i was old enough to have hair. (only do this when i'm by myself or with girlfiend).

5) Occasionally, i'll imagine "what ifs"--these can be anything. What if i just got hit by a car, what would i do, what would happen....or, whats more is...what if i have a disease. I don't constantly think about these, but they come and go. I've obsessed over having an STD or severe mental disorder for sometime, on and off. Some anxiety about this for anxiety sake.

thanks!
-kurt