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I have been checking locks now for about 3-4 years...i drives me nuts because i know that the doors are locked but i just stare at them and keep turning the knob to make sure its locked. My wife thinks i am crazy and it is very embarrassing. I have a system (I dont feel comfortable saying this but...)every night before i go to bed. First i check the lights downstairs a few times make sure the switch is all the turned off then make sure both sets of car keys are on the hook on the wall, then make sure the locks on the door are secure. The downstairs is "1". Next up to the kitchen, but first need to look down the steps to make sure all lights are off. Now the kitchen door, same procedure, make sure i can see the 2 locks and that they are really in the locked position. This door is "2". Now over to the stove, look at each knob over and over this is "3" and the window over the stove is "4". Make sure all lights in kitchen are off and that nothing is plugged in to the sockets! Off to the living room and make sure again that the door is locked..the living room door is "5". First of all this whole procedure takes somewhere between 15-45 min (just to lock up at night!!! crazy i know) and then i will lay in bed and with my left hand count repeatedly 1,2,3,4,5 and go over what the situation was in each room and how the locks were positioned and if something doesnt seem right i will go and check again.

Obviously i know that this behavior is crazy and wrong, becuase i am writing here but yet i still cant stop it. I have been taking paxil cr for a while and just stopped it b/c my prescription ran out and now on top of everything i am feeling terrible due to withdrawl effects!! I could go on about a few other obcessions but not now...thanks for listening and you can know that you arent alone in the checking...after all what will happen tonight if we dont check? probably nothing, but something might.....