Can overeating be OCD?
The other day I was watching a show on hoarding. They were treating the person for OCD. As I watched I began to sort of wake up. The information was going past me, the way it does when the TV is on and you are only partially watching the show. But then I started hearing what they were saying and the more they said, the more I realized that this woman's hoarding was very, very similar to the way I deal with food. For years I've accepted it as my food issue as addiction but after watching that show I can't get this OCD possibility out of my brain. (No joke intended.)
Here's how it happens: Hunger triggers my eating. I rarely eat without being hungry first. But once I start eating, it's not easy for me to stop. It's like there is an end goal I have to get to before I can stop. This should not be confused with binge eating. Some times the end goal is simply to have something crunchy as the last bite of food. Sometimes the goal is eat 1 sweet, 1 crunchy and 1 meat item. I don't think other people plan their meals this way, do they?? If I can get myself into a right thinking mode, my eating is healthy and strong. But the brain has to be there first or the rest can't follow. It's very hard to explain, but it's not about "what taste do you want" but more about "what does my brain tell me is okay for tonight". And when my brain goes out of bonkers, the healthy diet falls apart.
I have very little experience with OCD. Does this sound like it could be that? I do have some other minor little OCD ticks. For a couple of years I had to count the items in my shower and keep track of what was being used up and what it was going to be replaced by. I sort of made it like a mini-job that was clearly just so I could control my little bathroom world. : ) My point of this is that I already have known I have some OCD tendencies and it runs in my families with cousins and Aunts coming out of the closet to me as we get older and care less what people think.
Please let me know what you think. I've got a doctor appt. coming up soon and if it seems there's any feedback that this is likely, I want to approach him with the though.
Thank you all very much.